Psalm 23:1-6
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for He is with me;
His rod and His staff,
they comfort me.

He prepares a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
He anoints my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

cca

today is sort of the first day i joined a cca for training even since i come to acjc.went for canoe training and find it quite comfortable there.met alot of new faces and old ones,and i awoke the yellow beast inside my asics running shoes after a long period of sleep =D btw since it was land training and must go to the gym,here are the list of stuff that i did (i did all of them without knowing their name thanks to a helpful guy call jeremy =D )

3sets of 15 rep at 80% full strength

1_back press
2_shoulder press
3_pull down
4_seated row
5_super pullover
6_upright row
7_bicept curts
8_snatch
10 cortaroy taso
11 leg press x 40
12 wrist curls x30
14 hyper extension x20
15 pull ups x10

and of course not forgetting the 100 pumpings as warm up b4 gym session and a "slow" jog of about 7 rounds around the track.quite a few ppl puked bt i have to say that anyone who apears in a canoe training is one brave soul.i realised that there were femal canoist too (shocked..yes i dint noe there were female ones).dun tink i am going for rugby try out.itz kind of boring and dangerous.i m waitin for the hockey training and spend some time in acjc band

had a long free period session and i suddenly felt that i didnt have much friends after all.i stone in the canteen for about half an hour plus,looking at alien faces who passed me every second.then i moved to the stand beside the track to see people having pe.as i watch those group of students having fun back in the canteen,i realised that i will be one of them if i am in njc.crapping,laughing and doing some crazy shit even when non of my classmates are around.but in acjc,i am nobody.but then again,i see it as a force that pushes me to work and not focusing myself on socialising.still,it's good to have some friends around *sobx*

btw i noticed that my gp teacher had low EQ.even though there is great depth in whatever she was talking during gp lessons,she never smiled or laugh before and couldnt understand a single lame jokes we made.also,she tensed to put herself into akward(how to spell???) situitions.for example,
gp teacher " has anyone bought this book?so i dun have to reorder again?"
--silence--
gp teacher"are you guys really sure?no one bought?"
--silence--
gp teacher "come'on who bought?put up your hands!"
--silence--
gp teacher " are you guys listening to me?"
--silence--
things going on in chenwei's mind as well as eugene's "duh i mean if no one bought then who will raise their hand lar!why she stil ask so many times!!"
chen wei " aiya cher,no one raise hand means everyone dint buy yet lar!"
gp teacher "ok then..class dismisd"
......what on earth was in her mind man.

going for water training on wed.realised that i have to carry my wet pe shirt along with me for the training because there is a double pe session on wed morning.o yes and i also learnt in acjc that there is a need to encourage people when they are down or they are giving up on something.during the training today,quite a number of us was intending to giv up.however,we cheered on for each other and those who intend to give up actually completed the program with us.sometimes we think that being there is enough,but actions to show concerns are important too(yes regardless of wether your target is guy or girl.wont make u a gay if you encourage a guy,which i used to think so)

CA is coming soon in 2 wks time.think most of you guys are having examinations too.good luck to everyone and o well god bless every folks in town

give me the strength to carry on.

over the weekend i went to the library twice.today and yesterday.which means i stayed at the library when i have free time sobx how pathetic.i realised going to the library is the in thing nowadays and mugger is usual equal meaning with someone who is intelligent,funky, good looking and have gre8 plans for the future.i duno what happen to the world but i am sure moe is doing a great job.i also seen couples dating or even quarelling in the library.this is how dramatic liraries nowadays.kindof like it haha give me chances to watch free show while studying at the same time.there was a guitar course yesterday too and jq was quite interested to buy one(go buy it...itz less then 100000 bucks =D)
gona go some cca tryouts next week.top 3 choices are hockey,canoing and rugby.here are some interesting facts about this few cca in acjc

hockey - captain is a nutty yalam who goes crazy if you tell a lame joke.after that,he bcums ur fren
canoing - legend says that they always do few hundred push ups,running around the track about 30 rounds, and stuff like that.i was not really surprise when i heard those because i have seen worse
rugy - heard dat a 112kg yalam rugby player got himself a birthday wish : stepping on each of the players on de stomach after sit ups.one thing to be happy of,he was not wearing his socer boots.

hey i realised i stop the english thingy lolx dun thing i should continue.too boring man.o yes i will not log on to msn for the next 5 days and if you really see me online,it's because i am RESEARCHING ahaha please ask me politely to offline IMMEDIATELY.thanks guys!!hope i can kick the habit of using the com too much.hope this method works.i really need some time to do other stuff but i just couldnt seem to be able to pull myself away from the computer
i am also going to start saving some money to buy ORIGINAL computer games after several failure atempts of using those which i borowed from friends.
ps3 is also coming at the end of the year.i have 3 years to save b4 i buy it lolx heard that the price will drop by half by then.

guess what i saw after basketball game near my condo 2day?a bunch of hot bikini babes age range from 16 to 19,best figure u could ever imagine,playing in the pool right b4 my eyes.i have to stop staring because there are guards walking towards me lolx man i love parc oasis!!!

that's about all and hope you guys had a great weekend too.

give me strength to carry on.

testin testin

thanks guys for the support sobx i am touched everywhere
anw school is getting better.i getting used to sit alone and mug and staring into blanks if there is a need to.though the chiobuz are flying around me like some duno wat,i lost interest in watching.i dun usually comment on the teachers in school but this time,i muz say sth

economics - the teachers are good.no doubt
mathematics - crazy and funny,but unable to teach.most of them looks like some mad scientist who lives in their own world.they are the ones who talks to themselves while they were walking and yes i witness one doing so myself
physics - er...old auntie..keeps repeating some unimportant points like a spoilt radio recorder
chemistry - young and sexy but a noob in teaching.freaks out when students asked funny questions and with people like me in the class,she should expect more of it coming
gp - red hot chilli pepper.wild girl that shuming talks about.gets angry easily.full of freaking ideology and cheemology in ang mo.i see her 4 times per week.
pw - curently at the stage of lecture,where we practised our coin magics

oh yes.i would like to comment on the school building and fascilities too.the school didn't realise the need to renovate the main school building,where the walls are peeling off and the canteen looks like a primary school canteen.the library is...heard that it's as bad as rv library and the com labs are pathetic.they assured us that the track is new but judging from how the track is being worn out,it has at least been there for half a decade.they say acjc is a rich man school so where does the moeny go?look across the field from the main building and you will see the famous super gym topped with a swimming pool and a japanese restaurant,known as THE cafe.the school charged us 20 bucks for de gym and pool fascilities per year even if ur not using them.it is compulsory to spend 10 bucks to buy a ac towel in order to enter the gym.look at the board which contains the name of doners who help build the supergym.i lost count of the number of zero in front the decimal point.

that was the conclusion i drew for the 1st week in school.still,i think the people i met so far are pretty nice and helpful except for some.and i still have not find a suitable cca for me

charlene did a gre8 job at nus!she rocked the LT13 at the bussiness block with the song hero sang by maria carey.even though the guys won the contest,i think she is the true winner of the night =D and yes i saw cheryl who look quite chio on the screen but not in person.tried to aproach her but she keeps disapearing muahahha

anyone wants to watch jue dui super band?i think some of them are really good!

give me the strength to carry on.mugger on form!!!

everyday i tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day.come to thnk of it,it's just a lie to myself.i seriously cannot fit in ac enviroment.it seems that the people always had something to talk about or someone to say hi to.the worst thing is,those things that i find it funny was not to them but what was funny to them was not to me.school work is stressing me up too.acjc gp lessons are super hardcore.SUPER HARDCORE.the english they use,the way they think.it's just not human.i am starting to lose my way in chemistry and physics.the physics teacher is just like some old auntie who knows no shit about physics.when we requested to go through tutorial,she insisted on doing spa instead.she took an hour to explain how to draw a table with 8 headings.who the hell will do a table with 8 headings !!??everyday i just feel like sleeping.
today i returned home at 2 plus.it is the first time in the year that i am reaching home before the sun sets.what a loser.
give me the strength to carry on

1st day of school

a good education or a good degree is more important

"function of education is to teach one to think intensively and to think critically.intelligence plus character - that is the true goal of education" martin luther king,jr.
i think that a good education is more important than a good degree.base on the speech,it shows that education does not only provide students with facts but skills to make use of the facts.education also develops the students as a whole,wether is it acedemicly or character development.
however,we canot deny the importance of a good degree in the modern society.a degree serves as a proof of one's ability in a specific area.one could stant out easily from the crowd with a good degree and get a good job.
in conclusion,i agree that a good education is more important than a good degree in the long run.earning money through a good job is not the only purpose of life,but a life without earning money is certainly one that we could not do with.therefore,there is a necesity for a good degree but a good education is more important

that was the speech i prepared for gp 2mrw.it feels sucky to be in a gp class wher i dun understand a shit.i hope i can hang on until the end of 2 years.for the second time in my life the fear of not having any friends in an alien enviroment seriously stressed me out.
bad news abt my class is that we had odd combi,which means that most of us will not be having lessons at the same location.secondly,there are 0 yes ZERO chiobu in my class.thirdly,there are more guys than girls in my class.to make things worse,most guys are from acs and sji.they just don't seem to talk the ways the normal guys do.
please give me the strength to carry on.

wednesday

yes...the only thing constructive i did for the pass few days was going to the library to READ COMICS.dots.how boring can my life be.
yesterday was a disaster.fell down at the carpark while i was speeding down the pavement in my roller blades.i heard my hand and spine cracked when the moment i land.hope i did not break any bones.went library again today to revised the new notes i recieved.realised that njc covered most of it so i practically did nothing again.but at least i could finally talk to some familiar faces like junquan,tammy and jj ppl haha for the first time i stepped into acjc i had some real laugh.it felt good.o great.this shall be the shortest entry since i have nothing new in my life.
btw since i intend to improve my english,i shall learn some american idioms from today onwards.

sentence of the day: ALL THUMBS
definition: awkward,esp with one's hands;clumsy
illustrative sentences:1)Walter tried to fix the broken table but he couldn't.He was all thumbs.
(which means: He had trouble fixing the table because he was not good at it)
2)when it comes to using a hammer and saw,i'm all thumbs.

that shall end my day with something in my head =D

oficial 1st day of holiday

let me see what i did today.woke up at 9 plus,ate breakfast + lunch,went orchard,bugis,ate some crap,came home and went roller blading,had dinner,use the com,mop the floor,change my blade wheels,and using the com again.it may seem to you that there is alot of events going on but seriously,the content is empty.no matter wat shyt i do,nothing peps me up as before.something had changed in me.i begin to like ice cream,soft drinks,chocolates and breakfast cereal soaked in milk.i turned on the com the first thing in the morning without knowing what i am going to do with it.i go on the streets having no idea where i am heading.i slacked at home and watched tv until 1 or 2 am without knowing whats the purpose of me watching those crapy shows.i made plans,but non of them seem to be on going.the thing called "laziness" is begining itz work again and it sucks.
i mean by the end of the day,when u laid on the bed,recalling what you did today that made it worth,it is very depressing to find non.
sometimes i just wonder why everyone does things that goes against their wills.i shall go with what i planned to do tomorrow and i hope i can check everything on my list!

saw harry at church on sunday.even though he ended up at tjc,he still looked as bubbly as usual.wished that i could talked to him abit more,but my body was just too reluctant to do so.commented on his funny luking tjc tie and went off hax

judging from the current education system, i think that the government is trying to make everyone equip and specialise in something that they want to at a earlier age.workshops or talks on intreprenership(ok..nv knew how to spell this word),dance,pop vocal courses,start as early as secondary one.this will shift the attention of the people,including the parents,from the importance of results and pay more attention in building the character of the students.i think this is something good for a start.ever since the word "study" appeared on earth, man seem to be studying for grades and excel in acedemic performances(basically studying for the sack of studying)without knowing what they really want.back in the 80s or 90s,if you graduate from the uni or equiped with a MBA,you half way to becoming a billionaire.but in the 21st century,an A level cert or MBA might get you working at some cheap fastfood restaurants or mopping the floor at some unknown kopitiam.with the growing technology and increase in communication,the gaps between informations and knowledges of each human becomes smaller.everyone can complete a university course or obtain a MBA cert.so how do we excel in this new competition?we must equip ourselves with something else other than studies.
this is not some kia su competition between parents like we used to think,it is globilisation we are talking about.man acquiring informations at the snap of the finger across nations;exchange of opinions and ideas within a split second.almost everyone know the same stuff.therefore,this is when CREATIVITY comes into place.something you have that others don't.let's take bubble tea for example.at first,everyone drinks the nai cha from kopitiams.no one ever thought of putting starch balls and ice in them.when that idea comes,a new market is formed.the costumers lyk that shit,there is a demand for bubble tea,and the one who thought of bubble tea became the only one supplying it.there come the big word MONEY.however,the failure of bubble tea lies in the fact that it is too easy to copy.it transformed from a specialised bussiness into some common shit.people start to lose the craze and the price of bubble tea hence dropped.
this brings in another big idea called PERSONILIZATION.having something that only you have but other's don't.customizing prog or courses acording to ones needs.by doing this,it is hard for ppl to copy and yet ur able to keep the demand going.(dint really made any sense...but that's what i thought).
looking back at what i said about the changes in modern educational system,the idea of personilization fits perfectly.personilized educational packages that suites each and unique students.but first,the students must know what they really want.this is something that curent education had been missing on.

judging from the whole chunk above,you might think i m crazy and yes i m.that's what boredom does to people.(no!!i dint copy paste.look at the english used man!!??it's so crappy!just like english chen wei style ya?)

boring saturday

now i realised the importance of school.besides the point that you get some usefull stuff into your brain,the next important thing it does is keeping you out of boredom.youngsters(including me) nowadays do whatever silly things you could imagine under the broad daylight if they are bored.for example,striping guy friends naked;throw wet toilet paper onto the toilet ceiling;kick ball at restricted areas;roller blading at parks.i dun really do all these(bt i done most of dem lolx) but seriouly,boredom kills.
driven by boredom,in a group of 6,the not-very-holiday-mode ppl stepped out of their house and met at jec.however they did nothing constrcutive there because they just ate and talked nonstop.after let say 2 hours,they moved on to orchard road,thinking they could go on a shopping spree.feeling the holes in their wallet,they decided to just walk around in the food selling department instead of shopping for branded shoes and bags when they reach orchard.for 3 hours they walked,for 3 hours they ate,without even realising that they are eating.at the end of it,one of them walked aimlessly towards the mrt station after the unofficial brunch.no one knew where they were heading and thought that maybe they would think of something after they go on board the train.sadly,they stil had no idea where to go.the aimless crowd returned to where they began,for dinner at macdonals/kfc/long john in the end.and thats the end to a boring and fattening saturday go-out-without-even-knowing-where-to-go session.
this shows how unreasonable human behaviour will be under the pressure of boredom.but usually,it got you nowhere.

nothingness

as the curtain closes,the sound of clapping faded,she lied there lifeless on the flower bed.
a story about time,a story about place, a story about people.about all things,a story about love. a love that will last forever.
a story of true love in a city of sins.a love that overcomes all obstacles:sickness,evil,death and lust.
due to my poor english,i have no idea to describe this feeling inside.moulin rouge is really really really spectacular x3.anyone have the sound track please lend me haha
days are really boring without school but yet i m stil not used to the atmosphere there =x anw i m quite in for roller blading this days lolx manage to master power side slide and some duno what stuff.though it may seem cool,it's quite boring when no one is able to practise the tricks with you.

anw met up with jac they all yesterday.still as tall as ever haha looks like you guys are doing quite well.maybe i m the one who is living in the past.guess i just have to move on.btw sry guys for being abit ap.not used to listen to girls talking and talking about some guys in the second intake.in fact i never really like to listen to girls talking about guys who are hot or cute.i mean this is really brokeback man.i mean if you talk about it once is ok lar,but if you keep talking about it then it's call irritating and anoying.and i really dislike that.

ok enough talks from the grumpy old man haha mum and bro is going out tomorrow for the whole day and i will be alone at home again.still cannot figure out what to do tomorrow.sigh.don't feel like mugging yet lar~~~

acjc day 3

lost.agony.pain.anger.i am runing out of words to describe this strange feeling inside for the pass few days.acjc,a place made for ang mos,hypocrites and profesional propagandaist.even though the chiobu friends promised me were there,things lyk GOOD(friendly bla bla) people and GOOD teachers were nowhere to be seen.i was dao by some bitch this morning because i said that acs is full of propaganda.she was lyk "cheena school...if you do not like it here you can always leave" I DUN EVEN NOE HER!!!!this is the first time i feel lyk punching and throwing a chair at a stranger + girl.acjc is just like it's aircon in the hall---super cold.even though there are some friendly people,they took up the minority.the only thing that comforts me was chicken rice stall.it's the only edible food there.

the people there are super fit.you can hardly see any fat people their.comparing njc pe schedule with ac, nj feels like heaven.the pe teachers in acjc might luk skinny (YES THEY ARE),they are dangerous.please do not touch.

friends whom i noe of are experiencing the same thing as me.those who wanted to leave,left.i never blame them for leaving me behind because it is their right to pursue what they want.but a little goodbye or mesage may be muchly appreciated.and then i begin to question myself:are they really my friends?afterall i know them for almost 5 years and they just went away like i never existed.

in njc,i will always stay until the gate close.but now,i feel like runing away from the school when there is a chance to.

after my 18th birthday,i suddenly felt the stress and burden i should face as a semi adult.choosing which subject combi that will suite my future career, university that i want to go to,cca that i want to join.options are making me sick.i had always been someone who dislike making choices.first of all,there is no one to blame but yourself when a wrong choice is made.secondly,you never know what the hell people think about you when you made some choices(even though i dun really care abt what they think).or maybe itz because the values that my parents had instilled in me.when i was a kid,mum always told me to think hard before buying a toy.i usualy chose not to buy the toy,because i am not sure i will play it like forever or gona dump it aside like trash after a day.roar !! thoughts are so random nowadays.

i always think that i should'nt really be serious in any relationship.not only love,but friendship as well.you never know when you are going to part with them,or be faced with betrayal from them.that makes me kind of cold but i think itz the best way to keep myself protected from all the pains at the end of it.however,man usually don't follow what they think they should do.i made friends.lots.and now,i missed them more than ever.even though they cannot be with me or around me,i know that their heart is still with me.i know i m not alone anymore.not that little boy who curls at a corner of the bed thinking that all he have is himself.he have friends now.true ones.

anyway i bought the acjc uniform.i kindof like the pe t shirt.itz dry fit hehe and yes my life is not doing any good to me and i hope it wil get better.i miss all my friends.i have decided not to go to school for the next 2 days.there is nothing much for me to hope for or look forward to.

stay out!!

my first ever stay out with school mate!!!i realised that i had been experiencing alot of first times every since i go jc.maybe i was just too mountain tortoise last time keke anw,we met at jec yesterday at 6pm.as usual,the guys reach first.knowing that the girls would be late, we went up to the ice skating ring and found out that there is actually a real ice hockey match going on.i found the match a bit fake because a fight broke out after the match started for about,er,10 min??being amused by their acting skills,we luffed our heads off and almost rolled onto the floor.abit later that night,we arrived at the house of the giant(bfg).it is very spacious for normal humans like us and two huge pieces of mirror added on to the effect.


the 1st movie we watched was saw!!!not bad for a start of the night.everyone was captivated by the effect and goryness of the movie.silver fish complained that it was a low cost production and screamed her lungs out when the doctor saw off his leg.most of us got a shock when the pervertic jig saw aka john the super duper weak patient got up from the floor in the toilet.
the rest of the night was filled with dramas and twist and turns when parents called to ask their children to go home.in the end,4 was left by 6am (yes..some went off at 3 am lar)
o yes i have to mention again.moulin rouge is super nice!!!i love the storyline and the songs.i would buy the soundtrack if i have a chance to.

after watching i not stupid too,i realied that there is a need for me to praise people.i started off by saying "kc!i like your smile!it's so sweeeeeeeeet!!and you look taller today!!"i was wacked like nobody's bussines after i finished the sentence.somehow whenever i truely want to praise someone,i always thought to be making sacastic remarks.that is kind of sad man.and when i complained that no one talks to me online,they smiled in my face and said that "you are a funny guy,and i have really no idea what to talk to you about online" =( wtf!!!!

the remaining 4 heroes went back home at about 1pm today.we found a pair of kittens which looked half dead,lying at the corner of the hdb flat.suddenly,i realised how small we were in compared to the world and there is so little things that we can do as we watch death eating the kittens slowly from the inside.there are just too many things that we had to care about and to be concern of to the extend that we sometimes could just do nothing,but forgetting all about it.this usually makes us feel better.even though it might sound like a selfish act but hey,face it,all humans are self centered.it's either the world cheats you,or the world owes you.it was never the other way round.

ok..those were just some random thoughts.i really do want to help those kittens but i don't really know what to do.maybe you guys can give some suggestions.

i am pretty nervous about going acjc and i am definitely sure that i would not want to go there in my rvhs uniform.

1st

ok...this is not really my first blog post.i used to write blog entries during those days in rv.however,i realised that i have no life to mention about in rv and so i deleted my older posts lolx i don't like this stupid blogspot thingy because it took me half an hour just to find a link that no one had use b4 >_< i have to say that jc life has much more things to talk about than secondary school days,where i follow daily routines lyk: go asembly,talk cock,go for lesons,have fun during recess and after school,and go home after a tiring day(ok..sound abit lyk jc xD)

today is a sad day for everyone.not just me, but almost everyone around me(except sum brianless gers hu have idea what troubles they are facing)the first bad news started off at 645,when i woke up 15 min later than usual.things got abit worse when the bus 66 pang seh me and i have to wake half an hour more.the worst thing happened after assembly.bravo for everyone who is not crying and tissue for those who is.wtf is moe doing?cutting off at partial 5 points?those guys are nuts man..but anything lar..i am prepared for acjc.

tammy:dun be too sad that u are leaving njc and going to sajc.tears won't be much help when it comes to reality.be strong and expect the changes in your life.your friends will always be there for you =D

da jie and kc and shar and tiff and bern and choon choon: well...just do what you guys usually do lar xD

JQ: dun b 2 sad oso.there are somethings you just have to let go,even though it hurts alot.once my brother,always my brother.letz go back njc sumtimes to eat ice and prata -D

canteen aunties: not sure if you guys have computers or internet connections,but i just wana say "THE FOOD YOU GUYS COOK IS THE BEST!!!!!"(ranked 2nd in comparison wid my parents cooking hehe)

gang37 : even though i am leaving..please keep the guai lan culture in njc alive.it will be really dead without us.especially when we used the weighing machine as disc man and emptying dustbins with our bare hands in the mid of the day.we did so much fun stuff in such a little time.quite an achievement guys =) and guess wat?the in charge of feedback unit sms me and thanked me for all those feedbacks i made (the tap is not working...tap is STILL not working)
ROCK ON GUYS!!!

s10 and nj friends: i cannot rmb your names.but i know your faces.so if u owe me moeny,watch out =D u guys rocked my days in njc..i always have fun when i see those faces that look shocked when i did those crazy stuff.even though we might be leading a completely different life from now,i will definitely miss you guys.(and the money you guys owe me)

hockey brockbackers :....fags...what can i say man lolx

miss lin/miss lau/mr chee/mrs koh : you guys r the best teachers i ever seen.i wish u all good luck and all the best.hopefully i will end up being your good friend instead of taking your lessons xp

njc track: ok..u dun have hands so u obviously dun have computer..bt seriously,i love stepping on u man..and i will do more of it once i have the chance =D

og20: you guys made my life more beautiful than ever when i m in njc.wish you all all the best and good luck no matter where you guys are!!

today marks an end to nj life and a fresh start in acjc

peace outside

special updates to those who wants their names to be mentioned =p haha
1)shu jun : yarla..nice lar..i dirty dirty u stil let me sit down..ur de nicest ger i ever seen
2)michelle : pork chop is a word of greeting in a land call labong...pigs lived ther lolx
3)jiazhen : wao..wat can i say..u have long tongues
guest of honour====heitung : praying HARD that i wun b in same class as you
4)mou : ..k..so i mentioned ur name