"wazup everybody~~~my name is johnny~~~welcome to my show~~~"
if you guys hear me speaking funny,datz bcoz of johnny in zhn my car lolx itz damn funny!!!itz a pity dat the newpaper fired mr brown sia hope he continue to make guai lan podcast and not catch by mata.
anw my prev en3 was totaly unlike me and i apologise for dat.even though i failed everything in my terms,i shld start to mug and slack a bit wen needed lar lolx
watched pirates ytrday at about 9 sth pm...wasnt very nice and it kindof makes me sleepy.even though itz hilarious,itz more lyk a preview for pirates 3.a very disapointing ending indeed.gosh i stil have 12 article reviews to do man see you guys around!!
walan eh kns nxt wk gt heritage day n acjc gt nothing on.acjc better have sum party shit and anounce within the nxt wk if not,i wil gona b so damn pissed

give me the strength to carry on

at certain point of life,there is a fear of not knowing what will be ahead of you,watz gonna bcum of you. and that fear is one that i m facing.many people told their kids that somethings you will know as you grow up and i was told so too.everyday i hoped,i prayed that i will grow up and know about everything in the world.at that point of time,i thought growing up is sort of lyk a one day thing rather than a process.but now i know that it is a process of pain,hatred and learning other negative things in the world.in childhood memories,there was ony toys, tv shows and fairy tales.and now,i know that people die because of diseases,starvation and pressure.man killed man for glory,honour and fame.one day u 2 were best friends and de next day he shot you from ur back.all those seem to meant nothing to us when we were kids.
i duno whatz happening to me.therez always this bad feeling inside me that keeps telling that 2mrw is not gonna be alright.family might break up,i may fail my promo and have to pack up and gt my ass back to china,friends may juz leave me dying in ac,cant go university,cant find a job,failing in everything i do.seriously man,i am scared.everyday i lived in this fear while i pretend everything was just fine,running away from it.i never knew when and how to deal with these shit.i need someone to hold on to and lay back on.but reality made me face those fears alone.everytime i walked alone under the hot sun in the street while couples holding hands zooming merrily pass me and some 12 yr old kids kissing in the swiming pool;and those times when people beatboxing on the stage and bboying on the streets;friends who grad with top scores and getting a gd job in gre8 companies,but where the fuck am i?why the fuck am i here?itz not about not being able to get what i want, itz about how to.my life is just screwed man.world cup stil goes on though
i duno how long i can hold on man...fuck

give me the strength to carry on

foooo~~~~say say say!!haha 2day is considered relatively slack.have you guys seen the sky this morning?itz damn scarey lar!!itz almost like the whole sky is falling down.so dark and cloudy man,wenle almost fell down bcoz of the strong wind lolx so i reached sch at usual time and after assembly,i went library to do part of de 36 gp articles that i am supose to complete by next friday and read those notes give out during lectures when i dint atend.however,i fell aslp under the soothing condition as usual =D after that our clz ppl have to go for chinese oral so i took the opportunity and sneak out of sch to play pool.i lost touch of the game man itz lyk i dint play for ony 1 mth?the balls that are supose to go straight into the pocket kip slenting away..damn it man.
france won!!i cannot believe it.well i actually expected this outcome but everyone hopes to see some twists in stories.i dint wake up to watch it this morning coz my mum dint close her room door.
sian...such good weather now and i canot go out to play coz of my injured leg haix
ps:i think i missed pw leson..heck

give me the strength to carry on

hey sup peeps!! i dint update my blog for damn long sia..coz i was very busy for the past few weeks haha and china banned all blogspot sites so i cannot acces the blog in china.howz everyone?must be watching soccer everyday until 5 am rite haha duno why i have this urge to watch and play soccer nowadays lolx i still say that itz an old man sport last time.
2day is kind of bad coz i went to sch late and itz my third time so i might gt a demerit sobx and worse of all i spell diarrhoer wrongly lar wtf lolx thnks to world cup i over slept zzzz
the pass few days was full of basketball.almost went to play basketball everyday with 4L peeps. it makes me feel much better and brings me out of those strange depressions =D thanks guys.i shall organise more 4L guy outings and go junda house to eat all de pizzas he order muahahaha
actually wanted to post some funny pictures i took in china but i duno how to load pictures up onto the blog =(
term exam is just over and some have just started.hope you guys can manage ur time well and have enough rest.peace out

give me the strength to carry on