memories_left_unsaid

2007-07-11T05:04:00.001-07:00

see my <3
not what i say or what i do
feel my <3
not what i gave or what i bought
touch my <3
not just be there when everything is fine
and then
there will be love..me..and you

2007-06-05T07:26:00.000-07:00

习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说离别
有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切

你不爱我
是我舍不得
是我不配
为你在狼狈
你不爱我
你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费

你不爱我
是我舍不得
是我不配
和命运作对
你不爱我
你真的不爱我
一直以为
我是后卫
原来只是
那后备

要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切

一直以为
我是后卫
原来只是
那后备

a day to remember

2007-05-18T06:49:00.000-07:00

actually i was quite sad at first..coz itz our last game and itz so shity and stuff...BUT we are still a team!!and i sososososososo hope that itz the last time i step into the pitch and knock some balls =DD
acjc hockey rocks!!i shall always remember today

18-5-2007

the day i graduated from my sports cca : hockey muahahahahaha

2007-02-26T04:57:00.000-08:00

flopped beep test today.i know i am sick and my ankle is a bit injured,i don't see that it should be an excuse for me under performing like that.should have push myself further but at that barrier,my legs just froze and my hands went cold.i suck man...

我在你的电影中，是主角？还是配角？
也许是生活中的另一个开始，还是另外一个自导自演的悲剧？
生活中有太多的问题，却总是得不到所要的答案

我累了，真的累了

2007-02-19T05:41:00.000-08:00

some people died to create
some people create to die

nothing just feels the way it should be anymore
the sun that once shone so brightly,早已失去它原有的光辉
the water that used to taste so sweet，早已失去了它的甘甜
the smile which use to show on her face，只有她的笑容，她的笑容，在我心中永远的灿烂，甜美

用生活来演出每个感人的故事
你和我

not sure what i felt was right

2007-02-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

等待没有答案的等待

i am not sure what i felt was right

多一道伤痕？还是永远的祝福？
是将盛开的鲜花？还是埋葬过去的坟墓？
彷徨，无助
你，就是答案

我会在每个情人节
送你一朵玫瑰
不是为了纪念爱情
而是送葬爱情

2007-02-08T03:20:00.000-08:00

getting sick is the worst thing you are gonna have in jc life. first you missed most of the lessons (not that you care) and you physical drop like shit. sadly, it has been a situation i am in for the pass few days.i shall be a nice boy and try to pick up my pace again and mug for all the monstrous tests next week =D good luck to everyone else who are going through the same thing
i had this sudden craze for jennifer lopez songs and i wonder way. guess i couldn't forget the way she dances crazily on the table and her voice. familiar songs like ain't it funny (murder remix) and jenny from the block makes you just want to sing along
i missed the pizza from my free period gang!!!sobx and it's seafood!!!my favorite pizza!but then again it is my fault because i didn't bother walking around and look for them =p
i feel so sad that i have to sacrifice the shopping trip with mr ong jq for our new year clothings because of the upcoming tests and competitions.sometimes i think the what tears our love apart is not the drifting feelings, but the fact that reality is piling up on us.why couldn't jc be 3 years course and 3 years for secondary school??
o gosh..i just realised that my dad is coming next Wednesday!and there is bbq for free period gang on friday~ even though we are not very close...but i have to say thank you guys a lot for inviting me and you guys rock!!!

i am not sure what i m feeling is right

2007-02-07T02:14:00.000-08:00

有一个女孩她说过，在14岁的时候，她明白了友情，信任
在她的伙伴中，她看到了所谓的心灵伴侣，并发现生活没有了他们，会是多么的寂寞，冷酷
在后来，她又经历了爱情，并懂得幸福的意义，心痛的离弃
学会了原谅，她笑过，哭过，恨过，爱过。
时间治愈了一切，除了她心中的伤痛，那些令她成长的伤痛
她把这些伤痛放在一个叫记忆的盒子里，提醒她所度过的时光

爱情让她在痛苦和幸福的矛盾中不断的拉扯，形成一个崩塌的漩涡，不停的旋转着。

她说，她学会了放弃，学会了不怕寂寞；学会了用冷漠保护自己，学会了看到那云朵后的阳光；学会了品尝眼泪的甜味，学会了忘记疼痛。

我想告诉她，生活有很悲伤的事，让人失望的事。
虽然你一次次地受到伤害，但我觉得你不该封闭自己。
给自己一个机会，给他人一个机会。
世上的东西都是成双成对的，应为他们要学会分享，学会支持。
人生的道路还很远，不要因为受过的伤痛，而放弃了尝试的机会。

感谢你该感谢的，原谅你该原谅的；
祝福你该祝福的，感恩你该感恩的。

i am not sure what i feel was right

但我真心的祝福你
勇敢地走下去
虽然我不知你何时会看到，但只希望你知道

2007-01-30T04:57:00.000-08:00

i lost count of the weeks because time flies like ________ .every week, every day, it is filled with trainings, homeworks, stoning and lectures.
i want to lax a bit, watch movies, hang out with my bunch of buddies and stay over night at friends house, which seem to be some luxury items nowadays
gosh i missed primary school days

ok

2007-01-27T06:22:00.000-08:00

after a long time of rest i decide to blog again..not that i have anything constructive to say but because of the terribly miserable life that i am going through right now( which i believe, is experienced by most j2)
looking at all the people who are having fun in school and life, i realized that i had missed lots of good times. regrets?too late to think about that and i just have to focus and move on. however, saying is easier than done. When i think back sometimes(ya ..i just got through my 19th birthday..makes me kind of an old man now) i think that i am a pure loser. everyone is getting gf nowadays and it's kind of pressurizing for a guy who had just turned 19. o well love cannot be forced after all so i just pass on that. everyone is mugging and mugging and mugging, but mugging with friends. while i, being a loner, cannot even as a single human being to go out and had resort to mug with scolfield and mr t bag.
the only happy moments that i have got for the pass month is the day when someone actually remembers and celebrated my birthday.for the whole life(so far) i had never celebrated my birthday with anyone before. maybe i was just trying to put up this strong front that i am independent and there is no need for others to care about me.in fact, i think i am pretty weak, emotionally. call me a wimp if you want to but i am a human after all. like what jq said, even superman is scared of cryptonite.
here i am trying to cheer someone up, and pissing at myself on the other hand. i don't know what's wrong with me man, really don't.i get stressed up easily these days and it is quite unusual for me to scold and shout at somebody whom i thought could be my friend, over certain minute issues.maybe it is a stage that everyone had to put through but i find it tough to take it alone.
the world is a stage, and all humans are merely players.if there is a chance to, i rather choose a duet in the this play.

2006-11-11T05:34:00.000-08:00

对我好对我好好到无路可退
可是我也很想有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪于是那么迂回

一时进一时退保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我好惭愧
享受被爱滋味却不让你想入非非

就让我们虚伪
有感情别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不是慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美

眼看你看著我看得那么暧昧
被爱爱人原来一样可悲
为甚么竟然防备别人给我献媚

不能推不能要要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经爱过谁
我所要的她不给好像小偷一样卑微

nice song foo~~~ ei...so fast going back china liao..sianed

2006-10-29T08:46:00.000-08:00

rating of 4L chalet~
entertainment level 4/5
population size 2.5/5
food quality 3/5
enviroment/atmosphere 4/5

fooo~~hardo gay des~~~
haha 4L chalet is overall a success!!but due to the lack of female comrades/chiobu,it has been quite a let down but our gayness level has absolutely advanced to the next level

1st day
ok ok lar...not really quite warmed up yet so abit sianed at 1st. however, we had alot of fun playing wid the masks provided and props in de rm =D BUT I WAS ATTACKED MOST OF THE TIME LAR!!!dey keep saying that the mask look better than my face =s though abit bu shuang..but damn funy lar!!lolx then therz a few photos of me wid de mask eatin apple and sum of the guys in our class gaying around
we arrived at the chalet around noon but alot of ppl missing.so we ended p eatin n eatin n eatin and buy the stuff that we need for the chalet.aft everythin, checked in and got the mask and shit lolx we spend alof of time playin wid the mask and stuff.after playin a few rounds of asshole dai di,where the few ppl bcums assholes constantly, we got bored. and then,more ppl came lolx and we start to play xbox and walk around.we had dinner at BK and i accidently unlock the secret buger which is not shown on the menu!!the manager damn guai lan lar lolx
at 1st i went in and said
"harlow~~"(waving IN FRONT of his face)"i want to eat..eh what is the BIGGEST burger u have?"ok i tot dat was guai lan enough.then,the manager said
"it is at...(pointin to the menu on counter..then those big poster on de display)..not any where on the menu" *faints wtf!!!i been starin at every pic on de menu and display n he tel me not on it?lolx
so i got the burger and i paid 10 bucks when jianming said "oi,keep the change"
chenwei "haha funy huh oi my change"
manager " ok then..i shall get your onion ring"..
chenwei"wtf!!!!my change!!"
the manager turn around and gave me a spastic look.THEN he gave me the change.phew dat was close man lolx
nxt ting which happend was the fact that i cannot finish the burger!!!itz seriously big lar! no wonder itz the bigest burger in bk lol hand a fun time tryin to finish it =D
aft diner ruijie and chao lin came..played pool wid ruijie and wenle..weaklings lolx keep losing to me =pPppP k lar jokin .aft dat hum ji ruijie went home 1st.aiya den aft dat eat alot of tibits and chips =s oya and beer!!!i felt DAMN slpy and drowsy lar~~when zhong xiao tryin to move me away i kicked his dick real hard lolx really sory sia but anw..i finaly fell aslp at a comfortable position.

2006-10-24T04:47:00.000-07:00

yay~~i m finaly blogin agian lolx not that i wanna stop blogging..itz juz that there are so much things going on everyday man and couldnt find the time to type of all de stuff
first of all...i am totaly broke lolx i mean seriously.everytime i draw out 50 bucks,it will almost be gone the next day due to my debts lolx it all started off when promo ends and holiday begins haha everytime i overspend,i wil be saying things like "aiya..spend once in a while wun die" but..it really made my acount in a total mess lolx watched 5 movies in 3 wks..played pool more den 3 times..went restaurant n number of times..took taxi more den 5 times and 1 time pass mid nite..itz lyk wtf!!! sumore therz chalet cumin up..o gosh i m broke =D
de nxt ting i wana anounce is...my chinese esay is published on de acjc esay colection booklet!!!but the coments i got frm people are pretty mixed.some says that they tink it sucks bcoz dey dun understand...sum tinks itz pretty crazy and weird...sum tinks itz nice and meaningful.well,guess thatz de type of effect i want huh lolx
my promo results sux..but i managed to promote.god bless those who cant and are struggling for it
yesterday was a killer too.first trainin after exam.o gosh imagine sprinting around a soccer field n number of times and bend ur back as if ur sum 100 yr old old man juz to get the hockey ball from one leg acros to the other.but i tink de hard work do pay off.my dribling skils improved though i dint do much to it =D oya i manage to run 5km in 25 min!!ok lar or maybe around that time limit lolx
class chalet is on friday~~lookin forward to it =D

2006-09-25T05:58:00.000-07:00

{[being !CHENWEI]} 我跟你不是很熟 just a friend 서영은 - 눈의 꽃 自导自演的悲剧 says:good luck for promos...and 4L ppl..enjoy chalet foo~~~

2006-09-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

我只是一个玩具
在你欢喜的时候被你捡起
有过的欢乐
似乎如段真诚的回忆
尽兴之时，随手将我遗弃
我无力，反抗你的背弃
只因在那瞬间，似乎有了心灵的交替
就这样，我被遗弃
我无力，只因我是一个玩具

面具的背后，是否真的一无所有？
所有的叹息，只是我无聊而引起？
谁都没有错，错的，只是我自己。

promo...wtf..

2006-09-12T04:21:00.000-07:00

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever
ever survive
how do i how do i
oh how do i live

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还停留
说不出口的感动
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
不能重来
不愿离开
是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
so how do i live
how do i live
how do i live
without you

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还放手
没有一次
停留
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

oh tell me now

how do i live without you
how do i breathe without you

2006-09-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

有些人选择忘记，我选择珍惜
也许我不懂
但共有过的美好回忆
就要这样对待

hope you will feel bter =D

2006-09-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

therz a few reasons dat i will never move out of parc oasis

1)ixxixxs will always be playin soccer at one ulu corner even though therz a lot of them while ppl lyk me wil b chilling at de pool or bbal court or gym
2)chiobu aka hot babde from all over the world, european, jap,korean and even singaporean will be sun taning/swim at de pool at 3 to 9 pm depending on the weather.this will cultivate a variation in the prospective of chiobu viewing =D
3)there are 4 foodcourts nearby,4bbal court,near jp,jec,westmall,lot1,swiming pool, jec sports complex,a few bus stops and a mrt station.what more can i ask for man
4)all my lovely frenz are staying nearby =D

life's good,but the best is yet to be

2006-09-06T09:25:00.001-07:00

看着你网上的日记
耳边放着你喜爱的歌曲
如此美丽的夜晚
让我想起了你

从来没有过的拥有
只是我一厢的情愿

好想在这一刻握着你的手
告诉你那瞬间
是我和你的永远，永远
在月光下，你耳边
轻轻地说我爱你
今世只要有你在身边

从来没有过的拥有
只是我一厢的情愿

在梦中的距离是如此的靠近
轻轻诉说着你的秘密
望着你深情的双眼
那月因你而美丽

不用说，我会懂
放下只是逃避的借口
梦始终有醒的时候
那么多的用心
只能换来一个无法逾越的伤口

从来没有过的拥有
只是我一厢的情愿

对不起，只想说声我爱你

2006-09-03T04:09:00.000-07:00

ever felt drenched and energy all drained, but still have to see those fuck face that otherz are giving you,including ur family?datz wat i m going through now..everyone would rather piss me off than alowin me 2 do watever i like.. sometimes i did try to mend it,trying to do something to help otherz.dey will be like "is this chen wei?stop being a hypocrite man." hey assholes i m trying to do sth meaningful alrite?seeing shit goin around me aint make me happy either.all i m sayin is please apreciate some stuff i do man..motherz day, i bought my mum a rose and guess what,itz lying at some random corners de 2nd day.dey say that it is not a chinese tradition to celebrate motherz day or any western festivals while i say datz bullshit.juz too lazy to give sum credits who try and show their kindness.fuck dat
sometimes i tried to care,but everyone else juz stays away, like i caught sum disease or sumthin.i hate this man i HATE THIS! and for those who did feel like this,damn u in hell.
this flu is killing me man..when izit gona be over?makes me hungry all de time but dun feel lyk studyin or exercising at all.to certain extend, my life is screwed..fuck
and those ppl who said dey care,trust me, they dun.nobody gives a shit about u when it comes to themselves.rmb dat t shirt dat says "me me me me me me me me me"?datz de shit datz wrong wid ppl these days
i m done

give me the strength to carry on

2006-08-25T19:51:00.000-07:00

gre8 outing ytrday guys..even though most of the time are talking about dota lolx the nanny was a bonus to de 30 dolar meal which made it worth afteral =D shld gt de hp num man since we got so much yuan fen...wasted sia
and i have been asked for cigerate de 2nd time.do i look lyk i freaking smoke??? sumore itz always those mama-san looking women dat asked for smoke frm me =S
muz mug over the weekend liao haha promo and exams and piling up.poly students,take a break.jc ppl...chiong ar!!!

2006-08-20T08:35:00.000-07:00

everyone seem to be breaking down these days and just getting weird...

2006-08-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

u can tell whos ur fren and huz not when your in trouble.now i know what it really mean

aaaaaaarrrrrrr i stil canot freakin walk or run lar dots..sumore i canot walk for long..oso duno y sia alot of ppl said it shld b healed by now leh =s
anw alot of exams and hw coming up so lazy to update abit lolx
boonch!!make sure got s10 outin =z

2006-08-12T03:42:00.000-07:00

if therz a olympic event for the best limper in de world, i m definitely going for it.due to a foolish mistake during a basketball match, i accidently sprained my ankle n now it is swollen lyk a melon nw.went to the doc twice and o gosh it is so damn expensive.30 bucks for de massage,medication and sum pills n mc =S furthermore i have to take taxi down to the clinic..so itz lyk 20 dolars more?grrrrr the best way to save money in singapore is not to fall sick or gt injured man..
been doin SOME homework this few days...rumour says that i have been muggin at home for 3 days but no....absolutely no...whenever i sit on the chair wid the notes in my hand,my foot start to ache.so in conclusion, the most thing i did over this few days of rest is to pack my file lolx everyday i m lyk...sleepinh...eatin lunch...sit and stone...watch tv...read the paper..nap...wake up..stone....use de com...dinner...watch tv...den slp again lolx totally old man style lor haix..shldnt have sprained it in de 1st place..missed the last fireworks performance 2day..
anw click is a nice show =D u guys shld catch it while itz still showing
grrrr i missed 06s10...freakin njc...while wun dey acept me...

2006-07-15T05:43:00.000-07:00

"wazup everybody~~~my name is johnny~~~welcome to my show~~~"
if you guys hear me speaking funny,datz bcoz of johnny in zhn my car lolx itz damn funny!!!itz a pity dat the newpaper fired mr brown sia hope he continue to make guai lan podcast and not catch by mata.
anw my prev en3 was totaly unlike me and i apologise for dat.even though i failed everything in my terms,i shld start to mug and slack a bit wen needed lar lolx
watched pirates ytrday at about 9 sth pm...wasnt very nice and it kindof makes me sleepy.even though itz hilarious,itz more lyk a preview for pirates 3.a very disapointing ending indeed.gosh i stil have 12 article reviews to do man see you guys around!!
walan eh kns nxt wk gt heritage day n acjc gt nothing on.acjc better have sum party shit and anounce within the nxt wk if not,i wil gona b so damn pissed

give me the strength to carry on

2006-07-09T03:04:00.000-07:00

at certain point of life,there is a fear of not knowing what will be ahead of you,watz gonna bcum of you. and that fear is one that i m facing.many people told their kids that somethings you will know as you grow up and i was told so too.everyday i hoped,i prayed that i will grow up and know about everything in the world.at that point of time,i thought growing up is sort of lyk a one day thing rather than a process.but now i know that it is a process of pain,hatred and learning other negative things in the world.in childhood memories,there was ony toys, tv shows and fairy tales.and now,i know that people die because of diseases,starvation and pressure.man killed man for glory,honour and fame.one day u 2 were best friends and de next day he shot you from ur back.all those seem to meant nothing to us when we were kids.
i duno whatz happening to me.therez always this bad feeling inside me that keeps telling that 2mrw is not gonna be alright.family might break up,i may fail my promo and have to pack up and gt my ass back to china,friends may juz leave me dying in ac,cant go university,cant find a job,failing in everything i do.seriously man,i am scared.everyday i lived in this fear while i pretend everything was just fine,running away from it.i never knew when and how to deal with these shit.i need someone to hold on to and lay back on.but reality made me face those fears alone.everytime i walked alone under the hot sun in the street while couples holding hands zooming merrily pass me and some 12 yr old kids kissing in the swiming pool;and those times when people beatboxing on the stage and bboying on the streets;friends who grad with top scores and getting a gd job in gre8 companies,but where the fuck am i?why the fuck am i here?itz not about not being able to get what i want, itz about how to.my life is just screwed man.world cup stil goes on though
i duno how long i can hold on man...fuck

give me the strength to carry on

2006-07-06T02:49:00.000-07:00

foooo~~~~say say say!!haha 2day is considered relatively slack.have you guys seen the sky this morning?itz damn scarey lar!!itz almost like the whole sky is falling down.so dark and cloudy man,wenle almost fell down bcoz of the strong wind lolx so i reached sch at usual time and after assembly,i went library to do part of de 36 gp articles that i am supose to complete by next friday and read those notes give out during lectures when i dint atend.however,i fell aslp under the soothing condition as usual =D after that our clz ppl have to go for chinese oral so i took the opportunity and sneak out of sch to play pool.i lost touch of the game man itz lyk i dint play for ony 1 mth?the balls that are supose to go straight into the pocket kip slenting away..damn it man.
france won!!i cannot believe it.well i actually expected this outcome but everyone hopes to see some twists in stories.i dint wake up to watch it this morning coz my mum dint close her room door.
sian...such good weather now and i canot go out to play coz of my injured leg haix
ps:i think i missed pw leson..heck

give me the strength to carry on

2006-07-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

hey sup peeps!! i dint update my blog for damn long sia..coz i was very busy for the past few weeks haha and china banned all blogspot sites so i cannot acces the blog in china.howz everyone?must be watching soccer everyday until 5 am rite haha duno why i have this urge to watch and play soccer nowadays lolx i still say that itz an old man sport last time.
2day is kind of bad coz i went to sch late and itz my third time so i might gt a demerit sobx and worse of all i spell diarrhoer wrongly lar wtf lolx thnks to world cup i over slept zzzz
the pass few days was full of basketball.almost went to play basketball everyday with 4L peeps. it makes me feel much better and brings me out of those strange depressions =D thanks guys.i shall organise more 4L guy outings and go junda house to eat all de pizzas he order muahahaha
actually wanted to post some funny pictures i took in china but i duno how to load pictures up onto the blog =(
term exam is just over and some have just started.hope you guys can manage ur time well and have enough rest.peace out

give me the strength to carry on

2006-05-25T05:50:00.000-07:00

yay going back china 2mrw..now busy packing..watched xman3 2day..nothing wrong wid de film except de ending..gre8 show until phoenix died...went to play pool n trashed sum white boy 5-3..anyone want me to buy anythings can msg me or tok 2 me on msn

2006-05-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

njc hoooo~~~wat can i say man!!it juz feels lyk home!!even though i went ther 2day alone,de moment i steped into njc i m greeted by so many of my friends!!so touched hahaha i helped my class sell those marsh mellow wid chocolate on it.we earn lyk 1000 plus lolx and something funny happend.dis guy came over and ask me de price of one stick of marsh mellow.den he ask me de price of a stick of banana.n den he asked me how much he muz pay for 2 marsh mellow stick and 1 banana stick.kindof pissed,i ask him "wa sir u ask so much..math teacher ar u" and he said "u stil duno hu i m?"and walked off.a moment later,my civics tutor wispered into my ears"that was the vice principle." lolx wtf lar.den aft dat sharon pua came!!!she is de famous discipline mistress.she made everyone bliev dat haunted house was a bad idea for funfair becuase she wan to b de ony ghost in sch lolx anw i guai lan her oso as usual.i was lyk "cher u wan not?i giv u discount.buy 3 gt 1 free"and she said "haha you got wash ur hand or not?" (i felt dat itz abit out of point bt..of coz not lolx) "o yes yes i washed wid detergent and anti biotic soap.super clean"and she walked off lolx

grace stead wid de guy from hockey!!!for those hu duno,grace is sum bubbly hot chick in njc and she is J2 and de guy frm hockey is on of de twins from J1!!!!!canot blieve it lar!!jq and i was lyk =O lolx aft dat met de usual gang.sobx missed dem so much haha and karen stil hit me as hard as she did.selwyn joined canoe and now his muscles r lyk...tumors lolx itz damn sick lar!his arm muscle is bigger den some ppl's head lor.ltr on saw lili and zhang,who apeared to b super sian lolx so i sat down awhile.but aft dat go back to my clz stall to help and i spend most of de time der.btw i saw alot of ac gers ther lolx

aft de funfair,my clz played uno and was kicking sumthing arnd until diner time.den,we headed to sumwher for chicken rice dinner and pool lolx alot guai lan stuff on de way lolx long time nv guai lan wid gang 37 le feels damn good man

anw de legendary feed back form in njc goes sth lyk dis

name:superman class: super date :superb contact number:if i tell you i muz kill you
nature of fault: no phone booth for me to change into my super outfit
aplication of fault : everywher

lolx i will load a pic of it 2mrw.cya guys~~

give me the strength to carry on

2006-05-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

life has been weird this few days

somehow,i think i am the vice class chairperson and i duno why lolx the first crisis faced was tys.1st we dint noe wat we ordered.2nd we duno how much we ordered.3rd duno de price of de tys.bt sumhow,we managed to settle these things and move on against all odds lolx go joyce u done a gre8 job haha

wen i went to sch 2day i found out that hard gay is the in thing now lolx wherever i go i kip hearing guys hoooo!!! say say say!!okay!!! lolx damn funy lar though de gers tink he is gross,sum tinks he is cute -_-||

our sch netballers dint win.lose by 3 points.damn sadening lar.the clap for them last for lyk more den a min lolx jiayou guys!!

after school had gp test and as expected,i failed.everything is lyk wtf lar dun even understand de passage lor english department damn funny leh if u wan ppl do ur pasage properly can u at least lyk make it understandable 1st?i hav been gtin FFFFFFFFFFFFFFail for v long liao lar nabeh chi bai motherfucker knnbccb.ok feeling much bter haha

just noe a stupid crazy n funny cha bo in my math test lolx tink she lyk a kid lyk dat always hit me wen i m unaware.nver mind u wana play come lar i scared ar =p

aft school went to play pool.leonard told me hez a noob bt NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO he trashed me n wenle lyk shit lar.n he left without payin lolx i think ac ppl quite humji.katrina n wanyi went all de way to jec bt dun dare 2 go in bcoz dey dun hav home cloth.comon sense wil tell dem to revert their pe shirt and cum in rite?but nooooooooooooooooooooooo dey insist dat dey wil gt caught -_-|| ok nt my prob anw.de total price is 19 bucks btw.u noe wat to do leonard lol.aft dat go play arcade and yes!finaly my bbal record go up to stage 4 hahaha bt stage 4 nid 400 points to pass i think lolx oya...saw this cheeena auntie looking cha bo damn erxin lar...lyk v rich lyk dat kip goofin arnd playin para para n stuff lolx and obv she noes nuts abt it so made a big fool out of herself tsk tsk and on de bus back,dis erxin couple stood in front of me lar de guy is lyk 20 plus den de cha bo lyk 40 plus lor and stil lyk mating season lyk dat damn disgusting lar walao eh

lost ytrday was scary.the storyline is gtin more n more confusin which makes it more n more exciting haha

njc !!here i come!!!

give me the strength to carry on

2006-05-18T06:34:00.000-07:00

yo peeps long time no see yo!!!lots of things hapening around lately and i dint really have time to fig out wat i wana blog lolx

anw went to my frenz house on sat.dint see him v quite long haha and gues who i met at his house?my prev math teacher!!and he is lyk his very gd fren lar lolx i luff until my jaws drop man.btw i bought the new laptop for my mum on dat day.acer one,and itz pretty gd acording to sum curent users

monday dint go sch coz i THOUGHT itz holiday until tues hehe so in de end i went to play pool early in de morning and retrieve my wireles router at funan.aft dat,i have to rush back to sch to take my phy retest.de restest wasnt quite bad lar..can pass haha

and i had juz come in contact with my psch fren whom i dint heard from for lyk...5 yrs?lolx itz funny how things works in life ya?

watched da vinci code today.too long.my back was aching at the last half an hour and the content is lyk a history text:dry and boring with bits of lame jokes here and ther.if i nid to say anythin dat worth my 8 bucks,itz the length of the show itself-2 n a half hours man

i tot i escaped all evil comon tests after i complete my math test but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i stil hav gp test 2mrw!!another test dat i noe i m gona flop.owell.hope dat i dun flop so badly

njc funfair is coming!!itz a day i have been waiting for after a v long time.cldnt wait to see those familiar faces and my sugestion letter on the hall of shame lolx

give me the strength to carry on

2006-05-09T03:37:00.000-07:00

can u believe it..there is actually another teeth growing inside my mouth!it was damn pain lar cant even eat properly oso..bt itz worth it man haha hope i can recover soon and eat more good stuff hehe

made sum decisions recently and i felt myself changing too (not changing cloth lar)

i happily failed my econ test.when i saw the paper i was lyk WTF?did she give me some h3 paper or sth?by the 2nd question,for the first time in my life,i wana sit there and just stare at the paper until the end of time.wat shit was that!!!???aft i calm myself down,i wrote sum stuff dat i dint even noe what izit and handed in.haix another red score to add to my report card

btw y rubber seeds bcum hot after you rub it real hard??

give me the strength to carry on

2006-05-04T04:27:00.000-07:00

no one else to blame but myself
of all the people,i let myself down....
i cant make decision anymore.everyone i made is a mistake.everything mistake starts from the moment i was doing olvl.fook
i need a break

give me the strength to carry on

sum ppl search a life time for it
sum ppl have it
sum ppl had it
sum ppl lost it
sum ppl discard it
i..wish i could treasure it

2006-04-30T07:52:00.000-07:00

bad day

Where is the moment when needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

super good song dat i m gona sing all day long lolx i fell in luv wid dis when i heard it.meaningful lyrics,catching tune.perfect song to gt stuck in ur mind x) speaking of which..2mrw is a holiday,which i m gona spend studying and packing my room.been lazing around for 2 long and hope that i can use it as a new start

o2 jam is damn hard to play.not suitable for those with clumsy fingers and slow reaction time.had a tuff time keeping up the wid de beats and at de same time looking at the keys.if not for those stupid yalam in yalam united..i could have played in de server for noobs =(

zhang my bro has a new rabit.she call it marshmellow earaser and god knows why.i told her that my aunt had one too,and it died becoz it ate too much vege(lao sai until die).aft that sentence,she has not been replying me online.

2day is wasted.2mrw will always be beter and sth to look forward to.

give me the strength to carry on

2006-04-29T07:20:00.000-07:00

wooo~~~ i m kind of hyper now.mayb itz because i had a wonderful dinner which lasted from 730 to 900 pm lolx the food is awesome!!

anw...i think sports is the cheapest and healthiest entertainment a group of friends can have..after visiting kbox,kpool,watch movie and eating fast foods lolx so a broke man with a wallet burning as much as the hot tennis girls,i decide to endulge in a day of healthy sports tomorow.should b goin swiming,basketball then tenis,with a bunch of broke(back) guys lolx

juz realised that alot of gosiping and talking behind ppl's back..wether good or bad in acjc.mayb itz bcoz i nv experience this type of culture be4.it makes you feel like wanting to know more bt at the same time thinkin wether izit the right thing to do,talking bhind ppl's back.in conclusion,i shall avoid this type of conversations and pretend i dint hear everything.like wat the priest had said,when temptations come,dun fight it,run away.(dat was wat i said wen gp teacher is tempted to extend her period to our breaks)

for those people who find it hard to find pi or gpp ideas,think while eating.when i was having dinner just now,some gre8 ideas just keep flowing into my mind as i ate.ahhaha food for thoughts =D

after writing that letter,i find myself feeling better and able to stand up again.thanks =D

went for my third band practise 2day and the gap between me and other percussion players are seriously huge.i think i m the lousiest player there,canot even handle simple time change from 5/8 to 6/8 to 3/4 and back again sobx...even sam,who claims that he is the worse player in the world,are doing things much better than me.maybe i should stay at canoeing afterall...but than again i wana learn sth from the pros...providing that they are willing to teach

changed the analog starhub tv cable box to digital 2day.able to watch all 60 channels for free for 24 hours lolx dun think i am gona sleep 2nite! gona make full use of it hehehe they even have karaoke chanels and some canto channels!!most importantly,they have animax!!and cartoon netwrk!! gona watch teen titans later hehe

i think web cam is quite cool.think i gona get one when i m back in china.actually i almost bought one lastyear but due to insufficient fund aft buying too much dvd,i gave up.this time,i shall make full use of the money and buy a good one.i nid an ear piece oso.after lending my ipod to wan yi,the ear piece starts to make funny sounds.perhapes itz her brain wave length dat disturbs the efficiency of my ear piece lolx shld make her subsidise my new one.

i shall start my holiday count down.think it should b here around 4 wks.lets pray that everyday is shorten to 18 hrs till the holiday comes.

finished my second english novel besides harry potter :dan brow's angle and demonds.i think itz a very nice novel.highly recomended.

after that exciting moment of climbing the back gate and pon track meet,i suddenly realise that it is wrong to pon school like that.that immense guilt inside me has been building and i swear i m not gona do it again.

k enough of crap from me.hope you guys hav a gre8 day!!

give me the strength to carry on

2006-04-26T05:42:00.000-07:00

sorry hweeyi.....

sorry lao shi....

sorry..

2006-04-25T05:04:00.000-07:00

dint blog for quite some time..not because i have nothing to talk about but too much to.

life is so fragile.few days ago,my neighbour just passed away.she is a nice old auntie who never fail to say hi and chit chat with me whenever there is a chance to.dint meet her for quite sometime and now,shez gone.i regret not talking to her more often.if god does exist,please bless her soul in heaven.

the weather is getting hotter and hotter each day.even though some classmates admit that it is their fault (ur hot!! right man....), the main culprit will be the sun(and the tenis girls =D).anw whenever the weather gets hot,my brain will go koo koo and do all sorts of things that i do not intend to.if i offend anyone in the process,please pardon lolx furthermore,it makes me more and more hot tempered each day.i was afraid that i might kil someone by the end of the wk.hope that doesnt happens.

physics lecturer changed to some old lady which i admit,has a soothing voice.every word coming from her mouth is like a...well sleeping pill.while the physics lecturer is too motherly,the physics tutor is like some crazy woman.her voice is close to ultrasound (i use close becoz human ears cant detect ultrasound)and she used some amplifying device during prac today(gre8).though most people thinks that she craps through lessons,i think she knows her stuff.maybe she could just keep her opinions to herself and talk about physics more.

dint pon any lessons this week and hope that i would not.having two fails in my hand (phy and math...my fav subjects),i m afraid that i have no more hands for fails.mayb itz time for me to start studying

during recess today,wenle successfuly put some colgate mint choco ice cream onto my hair and i have to wash my hair twice to get rid of it.and when the class went to sign up for cip,classmates start to crazily paste stickers onto my shirt,my butt and de part in front of my butt lolx eager to promote for www.youth.sg , i managed to leave the stickers on my clothings for half a day,before some teacher complained.

skipped band 2day because i realised that i have no parts for this few months.everyone is busy preparing for performances during the june holiday while i,busy reading Angels and Demons.that was how i acheive the 200 pg on saturday

come to think of it,i feel like killing choon hang.dint help me buy tix for cultural night.the regret grew over the wkend.now i want revenge!!!

school is getting boring and dull.everyday,i go to school,enjoy free periods,slack during lectures and tutorials,eat,sleep, and race to get home when the school ends.sounds like my secondary 1 and 2 life which i dun really enjoy.

give me the strength to carry on

2006-04-21T05:50:00.000-07:00

walao~~!!!walao walao walao~!!!! stupid hua yi sec!!!y muz hav sports day on fri morning lar!!4 buses zoom pass me like i am nothing because they are all full of hua yi ppl.thanks to them,i attended the 1st dc in my life.MY LIFE MAN!!!how can dey do dis to me!!???itz juz so shit man..
2day dance are having camp.DANCE CAMP LEH!!!the boy and ger ratio is like 2:999999999 walao!!!! scacity!!and i am not in dance!!how can they do this to me!!!
after serious thinkin..i shld go band 2mrw.but for sectionals coz main band i gt nth to do
k super random coz 3 hrs of gym sesion wil make anyone collapse

give me strength to carry on

2006-04-17T06:39:00.000-07:00

duno wether isit me or the people around me.i find that i have changed alot.becoming more moody,easily irritated and gets angry very easily.
during chemistry lesson 2day,i was kind of late again because i went the wrong floor.then,the duno hu teacher keep asking me to sit in the front.i mean come on man as if it will make ur lesson more interesting lar.so anyway i told her i will sit in front next time.however she keep coming to my table and asking me to sit in front which utterly pissed me off.she also said that i can either sit in front or get out of the class,which i did.not that i am brave or anything but just super pissed by her childish behaviour.chemistry teachers nowadays are seriously like kids man..that happens to my njc chem teacher too lolx

so many exams and test recently and i have absolutely no mood to study.everyday i just slack around the void deck,listening to my ipod and looking at people doing their stupid stuff.i mean humans are weird.they socialised for self benifits.though they noe dat everyone is just tryin to gain the most out of others while sacrificing the least from oneself,they still play along with the rules and act as if there is no such things involved.everything in my recent life just seem so dull and ..boring.boredom seem to be the major problem nowadays to most ppl.

lots of things going on around me too.too much secrets to keep,too much things to know.i mean why should i bother about all this?afterall i am born alone,i shall die alone too.y is there so much interaction to do?mayb i just like the feeling of talking to others,geting comfort from others and knowing what others are thinking.but seriously for what?i duno if i am normal anymore...

give me the strength to carry on

2006-04-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

yoyo watzup guys!!haha i didn't update recently either because i am busy or lazy to come and update haha too much things that happen recently.don't know which to talk about man

let's talk about my cca.i quit canoe and joined band instead.dad says that i come home with a dead body everytime after canoe and this cannot continue because i should spend more time on my studys.fine.after much consideration i finally decided to join band.haix.the most worrying thing abt band is that there are too many pros in percussion.and as usual,i dun feel like training up my skill because it is damn noisy to practise at home.but in order to get the cca points,i might just have to sacrifise that little bit of dignity i have.

i met alot of new people too.makes me think alot and learn alot.1stly,i have to deal with gays(lax..non is in my clz).though i always have the urge to punch gays because they remind me of SOMEONE.however,i get to adapt to the enviroment and start talking to them.i finally dare to look them in the eyes with that tinge of friendliness and not hostility haha next thing i must say is,for the first time in history i am irritated by a guy.and he is call CHRISTOFER SONG!!!!BLURDY SOUTH AFRICAN BOY!!!!even though he has dis stupidness that most ppl cannot acept,i have to admit he is a nice guy at certain point of time to the certain extend.some ppl whom i met once are nice and some just show total hostility which i retaliated with vulgurities such as kns ccb which no one understands.maybe i shall do the culture of vulgarities as tradition or momentum.

even though it has been quite some time,i still cldnt gt use to the english culture.no one speaks chinese and the ony pair who convers in chinese in acjc seem to be just me and wenle.whenever i speak,there will definitely be a few ppl turning arnd and see who the hell was that.kind of cool though lolx

besides i learn that acjc band selling nachos is a scam.they sold those pathetic pieces of nachos with those pathetic amt of cheese on it for 3 bucks.most of it will be gone when i walk from the canteen to void deck because alot of "crows" will kop on the way.fine.other than the chicken rice stall,i think that the fruit juice store is not bad and niong dao fu.but kind of expensive coz i seem to be spending much more than usual on food ahha

had a few comon test but i hecked all of them.every since i enter acjc,i have this thick sense of moodiness over me.it is like raining in my heart every day.even though i tried my best to smile luff and everything,my heart doesnt seem to go with it

give me the strength to carry on

to be continued....

2006-03-30T05:35:00.000-08:00

Psalm 23:1-6
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for He is with me;
His rod and His staff,
they comfort me.

He prepares a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
He anoints my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

cca

2006-03-28T03:10:00.000-08:00

today is sort of the first day i joined a cca for training even since i come to acjc.went for canoe training and find it quite comfortable there.met alot of new faces and old ones,and i awoke the yellow beast inside my asics running shoes after a long period of sleep =D btw since it was land training and must go to the gym,here are the list of stuff that i did (i did all of them without knowing their name thanks to a helpful guy call jeremy =D )

3sets of 15 rep at 80% full strength

1_back press
2_shoulder press
3_pull down
4_seated row
5_super pullover
6_upright row
7_bicept curts
8_snatch
10 cortaroy taso
11 leg press x 40
12 wrist curls x30
14 hyper extension x20
15 pull ups x10

and of course not forgetting the 100 pumpings as warm up b4 gym session and a "slow" jog of about 7 rounds around the track.quite a few ppl puked bt i have to say that anyone who apears in a canoe training is one brave soul.i realised that there were femal canoist too (shocked..yes i dint noe there were female ones).dun tink i am going for rugby try out.itz kind of boring and dangerous.i m waitin for the hockey training and spend some time in acjc band

had a long free period session and i suddenly felt that i didnt have much friends after all.i stone in the canteen for about half an hour plus,looking at alien faces who passed me every second.then i moved to the stand beside the track to see people having pe.as i watch those group of students having fun back in the canteen,i realised that i will be one of them if i am in njc.crapping,laughing and doing some crazy shit even when non of my classmates are around.but in acjc,i am nobody.but then again,i see it as a force that pushes me to work and not focusing myself on socialising.still,it's good to have some friends around *sobx*

btw i noticed that my gp teacher had low EQ.even though there is great depth in whatever she was talking during gp lessons,she never smiled or laugh before and couldnt understand a single lame jokes we made.also,she tensed to put herself into akward(how to spell???) situitions.for example,
gp teacher " has anyone bought this book?so i dun have to reorder again?"
--silence--
gp teacher"are you guys really sure?no one bought?"
--silence--
gp teacher "come'on who bought?put up your hands!"
--silence--
gp teacher " are you guys listening to me?"
--silence--
things going on in chenwei's mind as well as eugene's "duh i mean if no one bought then who will raise their hand lar!why she stil ask so many times!!"
chen wei " aiya cher,no one raise hand means everyone dint buy yet lar!"
gp teacher "ok then..class dismisd"
......what on earth was in her mind man.

going for water training on wed.realised that i have to carry my wet pe shirt along with me for the training because there is a double pe session on wed morning.o yes and i also learnt in acjc that there is a need to encourage people when they are down or they are giving up on something.during the training today,quite a number of us was intending to giv up.however,we cheered on for each other and those who intend to give up actually completed the program with us.sometimes we think that being there is enough,but actions to show concerns are important too(yes regardless of wether your target is guy or girl.wont make u a gay if you encourage a guy,which i used to think so)

CA is coming soon in 2 wks time.think most of you guys are having examinations too.good luck to everyone and o well god bless every folks in town

give me the strength to carry on.

2006-03-26T04:40:00.000-08:00

over the weekend i went to the library twice.today and yesterday.which means i stayed at the library when i have free time sobx how pathetic.i realised going to the library is the in thing nowadays and mugger is usual equal meaning with someone who is intelligent,funky, good looking and have gre8 plans for the future.i duno what happen to the world but i am sure moe is doing a great job.i also seen couples dating or even quarelling in the library.this is how dramatic liraries nowadays.kindof like it haha give me chances to watch free show while studying at the same time.there was a guitar course yesterday too and jq was quite interested to buy one(go buy it...itz less then 100000 bucks =D)
gona go some cca tryouts next week.top 3 choices are hockey,canoing and rugby.here are some interesting facts about this few cca in acjc

hockey - captain is a nutty yalam who goes crazy if you tell a lame joke.after that,he bcums ur fren
canoing - legend says that they always do few hundred push ups,running around the track about 30 rounds, and stuff like that.i was not really surprise when i heard those because i have seen worse
rugy - heard dat a 112kg yalam rugby player got himself a birthday wish : stepping on each of the players on de stomach after sit ups.one thing to be happy of,he was not wearing his socer boots.

hey i realised i stop the english thingy lolx dun thing i should continue.too boring man.o yes i will not log on to msn for the next 5 days and if you really see me online,it's because i am RESEARCHING ahaha please ask me politely to offline IMMEDIATELY.thanks guys!!hope i can kick the habit of using the com too much.hope this method works.i really need some time to do other stuff but i just couldnt seem to be able to pull myself away from the computer
i am also going to start saving some money to buy ORIGINAL computer games after several failure atempts of using those which i borowed from friends.
ps3 is also coming at the end of the year.i have 3 years to save b4 i buy it lolx heard that the price will drop by half by then.

guess what i saw after basketball game near my condo 2day?a bunch of hot bikini babes age range from 16 to 19,best figure u could ever imagine,playing in the pool right b4 my eyes.i have to stop staring because there are guards walking towards me lolx man i love parc oasis!!!

that's about all and hope you guys had a great weekend too.

give me strength to carry on.

2006-03-26T04:05:00.000-08:00

testin testin

2006-03-26T03:41:00.000-08:00

thanks guys for the support sobx i am touched everywhere
anw school is getting better.i getting used to sit alone and mug and staring into blanks if there is a need to.though the chiobuz are flying around me like some duno wat,i lost interest in watching.i dun usually comment on the teachers in school but this time,i muz say sth

economics - the teachers are good.no doubt
mathematics - crazy and funny,but unable to teach.most of them looks like some mad scientist who lives in their own world.they are the ones who talks to themselves while they were walking and yes i witness one doing so myself
physics - er...old auntie..keeps repeating some unimportant points like a spoilt radio recorder
chemistry - young and sexy but a noob in teaching.freaks out when students asked funny questions and with people like me in the class,she should expect more of it coming
gp - red hot chilli pepper.wild girl that shuming talks about.gets angry easily.full of freaking ideology and cheemology in ang mo.i see her 4 times per week.
pw - curently at the stage of lecture,where we practised our coin magics

oh yes.i would like to comment on the school building and fascilities too.the school didn't realise the need to renovate the main school building,where the walls are peeling off and the canteen looks like a primary school canteen.the library is...heard that it's as bad as rv library and the com labs are pathetic.they assured us that the track is new but judging from how the track is being worn out,it has at least been there for half a decade.they say acjc is a rich man school so where does the moeny go?look across the field from the main building and you will see the famous super gym topped with a swimming pool and a japanese restaurant,known as THE cafe.the school charged us 20 bucks for de gym and pool fascilities per year even if ur not using them.it is compulsory to spend 10 bucks to buy a ac towel in order to enter the gym.look at the board which contains the name of doners who help build the supergym.i lost count of the number of zero in front the decimal point.

that was the conclusion i drew for the 1st week in school.still,i think the people i met so far are pretty nice and helpful except for some.and i still have not find a suitable cca for me

charlene did a gre8 job at nus!she rocked the LT13 at the bussiness block with the song hero sang by maria carey.even though the guys won the contest,i think she is the true winner of the night =D and yes i saw cheryl who look quite chio on the screen but not in person.tried to aproach her but she keeps disapearing muahahha

anyone wants to watch jue dui super band?i think some of them are really good!

give me the strength to carry on.mugger on form!!!

2006-03-21T22:58:00.000-08:00

everyday i tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day.come to thnk of it,it's just a lie to myself.i seriously cannot fit in ac enviroment.it seems that the people always had something to talk about or someone to say hi to.the worst thing is,those things that i find it funny was not to them but what was funny to them was not to me.school work is stressing me up too.acjc gp lessons are super hardcore.SUPER HARDCORE.the english they use,the way they think.it's just not human.i am starting to lose my way in chemistry and physics.the physics teacher is just like some old auntie who knows no shit about physics.when we requested to go through tutorial,she insisted on doing spa instead.she took an hour to explain how to draw a table with 8 headings.who the hell will do a table with 8 headings !!??everyday i just feel like sleeping.
today i returned home at 2 plus.it is the first time in the year that i am reaching home before the sun sets.what a loser.
give me the strength to carry on

1st day of school

2006-03-20T04:23:00.000-08:00

a good education or a good degree is more important

"function of education is to teach one to think intensively and to think critically.intelligence plus character - that is the true goal of education" martin luther king,jr.
i think that a good education is more important than a good degree.base on the speech,it shows that education does not only provide students with facts but skills to make use of the facts.education also develops the students as a whole,wether is it acedemicly or character development.
however,we canot deny the importance of a good degree in the modern society.a degree serves as a proof of one's ability in a specific area.one could stant out easily from the crowd with a good degree and get a good job.
in conclusion,i agree that a good education is more important than a good degree in the long run.earning money through a good job is not the only purpose of life,but a life without earning money is certainly one that we could not do with.therefore,there is a necesity for a good degree but a good education is more important

that was the speech i prepared for gp 2mrw.it feels sucky to be in a gp class wher i dun understand a shit.i hope i can hang on until the end of 2 years.for the second time in my life the fear of not having any friends in an alien enviroment seriously stressed me out.
bad news abt my class is that we had odd combi,which means that most of us will not be having lessons at the same location.secondly,there are 0 yes ZERO chiobu in my class.thirdly,there are more guys than girls in my class.to make things worse,most guys are from acs and sji.they just don't seem to talk the ways the normal guys do.
please give me the strength to carry on.

wednesday

2006-03-15T04:13:00.000-08:00

yes...the only thing constructive i did for the pass few days was going to the library to READ COMICS.dots.how boring can my life be.
yesterday was a disaster.fell down at the carpark while i was speeding down the pavement in my roller blades.i heard my hand and spine cracked when the moment i land.hope i did not break any bones.went library again today to revised the new notes i recieved.realised that njc covered most of it so i practically did nothing again.but at least i could finally talk to some familiar faces like junquan,tammy and jj ppl haha for the first time i stepped into acjc i had some real laugh.it felt good.o great.this shall be the shortest entry since i have nothing new in my life.
btw since i intend to improve my english,i shall learn some american idioms from today onwards.

sentence of the day: ALL THUMBS
definition: awkward,esp with one's hands;clumsy
illustrative sentences:1)Walter tried to fix the broken table but he couldn't.He was all thumbs.
(which means: He had trouble fixing the table because he was not good at it)
2)when it comes to using a hammer and saw,i'm all thumbs.

that shall end my day with something in my head =D

oficial 1st day of holiday

2006-03-13T07:25:00.000-08:00

let me see what i did today.woke up at 9 plus,ate breakfast + lunch,went orchard,bugis,ate some crap,came home and went roller blading,had dinner,use the com,mop the floor,change my blade wheels,and using the com again.it may seem to you that there is alot of events going on but seriously,the content is empty.no matter wat shyt i do,nothing peps me up as before.something had changed in me.i begin to like ice cream,soft drinks,chocolates and breakfast cereal soaked in milk.i turned on the com the first thing in the morning without knowing what i am going to do with it.i go on the streets having no idea where i am heading.i slacked at home and watched tv until 1 or 2 am without knowing whats the purpose of me watching those crapy shows.i made plans,but non of them seem to be on going.the thing called "laziness" is begining itz work again and it sucks.
i mean by the end of the day,when u laid on the bed,recalling what you did today that made it worth,it is very depressing to find non.
sometimes i just wonder why everyone does things that goes against their wills.i shall go with what i planned to do tomorrow and i hope i can check everything on my list!

saw harry at church on sunday.even though he ended up at tjc,he still looked as bubbly as usual.wished that i could talked to him abit more,but my body was just too reluctant to do so.commented on his funny luking tjc tie and went off hax

judging from the current education system, i think that the government is trying to make everyone equip and specialise in something that they want to at a earlier age.workshops or talks on intreprenership(ok..nv knew how to spell this word),dance,pop vocal courses,start as early as secondary one.this will shift the attention of the people,including the parents,from the importance of results and pay more attention in building the character of the students.i think this is something good for a start.ever since the word "study" appeared on earth, man seem to be studying for grades and excel in acedemic performances(basically studying for the sack of studying)without knowing what they really want.back in the 80s or 90s,if you graduate from the uni or equiped with a MBA,you half way to becoming a billionaire.but in the 21st century,an A level cert or MBA might get you working at some cheap fastfood restaurants or mopping the floor at some unknown kopitiam.with the growing technology and increase in communication,the gaps between informations and knowledges of each human becomes smaller.everyone can complete a university course or obtain a MBA cert.so how do we excel in this new competition?we must equip ourselves with something else other than studies.
this is not some kia su competition between parents like we used to think,it is globilisation we are talking about.man acquiring informations at the snap of the finger across nations;exchange of opinions and ideas within a split second.almost everyone know the same stuff.therefore,this is when CREATIVITY comes into place.something you have that others don't.let's take bubble tea for example.at first,everyone drinks the nai cha from kopitiams.no one ever thought of putting starch balls and ice in them.when that idea comes,a new market is formed.the costumers lyk that shit,there is a demand for bubble tea,and the one who thought of bubble tea became the only one supplying it.there come the big word MONEY.however,the failure of bubble tea lies in the fact that it is too easy to copy.it transformed from a specialised bussiness into some common shit.people start to lose the craze and the price of bubble tea hence dropped.
this brings in another big idea called PERSONILIZATION.having something that only you have but other's don't.customizing prog or courses acording to ones needs.by doing this,it is hard for ppl to copy and yet ur able to keep the demand going.(dint really made any sense...but that's what i thought).
looking back at what i said about the changes in modern educational system,the idea of personilization fits perfectly.personilized educational packages that suites each and unique students.but first,the students must know what they really want.this is something that curent education had been missing on.

judging from the whole chunk above,you might think i m crazy and yes i m.that's what boredom does to people.(no!!i dint copy paste.look at the english used man!!??it's so crappy!just like english chen wei style ya?)

boring saturday

2006-03-11T23:51:00.000-08:00

now i realised the importance of school.besides the point that you get some usefull stuff into your brain,the next important thing it does is keeping you out of boredom.youngsters(including me) nowadays do whatever silly things you could imagine under the broad daylight if they are bored.for example,striping guy friends naked;throw wet toilet paper onto the toilet ceiling;kick ball at restricted areas;roller blading at parks.i dun really do all these(bt i done most of dem lolx) but seriouly,boredom kills.
driven by boredom,in a group of 6,the not-very-holiday-mode ppl stepped out of their house and met at jec.however they did nothing constrcutive there because they just ate and talked nonstop.after let say 2 hours,they moved on to orchard road,thinking they could go on a shopping spree.feeling the holes in their wallet,they decided to just walk around in the food selling department instead of shopping for branded shoes and bags when they reach orchard.for 3 hours they walked,for 3 hours they ate,without even realising that they are eating.at the end of it,one of them walked aimlessly towards the mrt station after the unofficial brunch.no one knew where they were heading and thought that maybe they would think of something after they go on board the train.sadly,they stil had no idea where to go.the aimless crowd returned to where they began,for dinner at macdonals/kfc/long john in the end.and thats the end to a boring and fattening saturday go-out-without-even-knowing-where-to-go session.
this shows how unreasonable human behaviour will be under the pressure of boredom.but usually,it got you nowhere.

nothingness

2006-03-10T05:40:00.000-08:00

as the curtain closes,the sound of clapping faded,she lied there lifeless on the flower bed.
a story about time,a story about place, a story about people.about all things,a story about love. a love that will last forever.
a story of true love in a city of sins.a love that overcomes all obstacles:sickness,evil,death and lust.
due to my poor english,i have no idea to describe this feeling inside.moulin rouge is really really really spectacular x3.anyone have the sound track please lend me haha
days are really boring without school but yet i m stil not used to the atmosphere there =x anw i m quite in for roller blading this days lolx manage to master power side slide and some duno what stuff.though it may seem cool,it's quite boring when no one is able to practise the tricks with you.

anw met up with jac they all yesterday.still as tall as ever haha looks like you guys are doing quite well.maybe i m the one who is living in the past.guess i just have to move on.btw sry guys for being abit ap.not used to listen to girls talking and talking about some guys in the second intake.in fact i never really like to listen to girls talking about guys who are hot or cute.i mean this is really brokeback man.i mean if you talk about it once is ok lar,but if you keep talking about it then it's call irritating and anoying.and i really dislike that.

ok enough talks from the grumpy old man haha mum and bro is going out tomorrow for the whole day and i will be alone at home again.still cannot figure out what to do tomorrow.sigh.don't feel like mugging yet lar~~~

acjc day 3

2006-03-08T04:35:00.000-08:00

lost.agony.pain.anger.i am runing out of words to describe this strange feeling inside for the pass few days.acjc,a place made for ang mos,hypocrites and profesional propagandaist.even though the chiobu friends promised me were there,things lyk GOOD(friendly bla bla) people and GOOD teachers were nowhere to be seen.i was dao by some bitch this morning because i said that acs is full of propaganda.she was lyk "cheena school...if you do not like it here you can always leave" I DUN EVEN NOE HER!!!!this is the first time i feel lyk punching and throwing a chair at a stranger + girl.acjc is just like it's aircon in the hall---super cold.even though there are some friendly people,they took up the minority.the only thing that comforts me was chicken rice stall.it's the only edible food there.

the people there are super fit.you can hardly see any fat people their.comparing njc pe schedule with ac, nj feels like heaven.the pe teachers in acjc might luk skinny (YES THEY ARE),they are dangerous.please do not touch.

friends whom i noe of are experiencing the same thing as me.those who wanted to leave,left.i never blame them for leaving me behind because it is their right to pursue what they want.but a little goodbye or mesage may be muchly appreciated.and then i begin to question myself:are they really my friends?afterall i know them for almost 5 years and they just went away like i never existed.

in njc,i will always stay until the gate close.but now,i feel like runing away from the school when there is a chance to.

after my 18th birthday,i suddenly felt the stress and burden i should face as a semi adult.choosing which subject combi that will suite my future career, university that i want to go to,cca that i want to join.options are making me sick.i had always been someone who dislike making choices.first of all,there is no one to blame but yourself when a wrong choice is made.secondly,you never know what the hell people think about you when you made some choices(even though i dun really care abt what they think).or maybe itz because the values that my parents had instilled in me.when i was a kid,mum always told me to think hard before buying a toy.i usualy chose not to buy the toy,because i am not sure i will play it like forever or gona dump it aside like trash after a day.roar !! thoughts are so random nowadays.

i always think that i should'nt really be serious in any relationship.not only love,but friendship as well.you never know when you are going to part with them,or be faced with betrayal from them.that makes me kind of cold but i think itz the best way to keep myself protected from all the pains at the end of it.however,man usually don't follow what they think they should do.i made friends.lots.and now,i missed them more than ever.even though they cannot be with me or around me,i know that their heart is still with me.i know i m not alone anymore.not that little boy who curls at a corner of the bed thinking that all he have is himself.he have friends now.true ones.

anyway i bought the acjc uniform.i kindof like the pe t shirt.itz dry fit hehe and yes my life is not doing any good to me and i hope it wil get better.i miss all my friends.i have decided not to go to school for the next 2 days.there is nothing much for me to hope for or look forward to.

stay out!!

2006-03-05T01:43:00.000-08:00

my first ever stay out with school mate!!!i realised that i had been experiencing alot of first times every since i go jc.maybe i was just too mountain tortoise last time keke anw,we met at jec yesterday at 6pm.as usual,the guys reach first.knowing that the girls would be late, we went up to the ice skating ring and found out that there is actually a real ice hockey match going on.i found the match a bit fake because a fight broke out after the match started for about,er,10 min??being amused by their acting skills,we luffed our heads off and almost rolled onto the floor.abit later that night,we arrived at the house of the giant(bfg).it is very spacious for normal humans like us and two huge pieces of mirror added on to the effect.

the 1st movie we watched was saw!!!not bad for a start of the night.everyone was captivated by the effect and goryness of the movie.silver fish complained that it was a low cost production and screamed her lungs out when the doctor saw off his leg.most of us got a shock when the pervertic jig saw aka john the super duper weak patient got up from the floor in the toilet.
the rest of the night was filled with dramas and twist and turns when parents called to ask their children to go home.in the end,4 was left by 6am (yes..some went off at 3 am lar)
o yes i have to mention again.moulin rouge is super nice!!!i love the storyline and the songs.i would buy the soundtrack if i have a chance to.

after watching i not stupid too,i realied that there is a need for me to praise people.i started off by saying "kc!i like your smile!it's so sweeeeeeeeet!!and you look taller today!!"i was wacked like nobody's bussines after i finished the sentence.somehow whenever i truely want to praise someone,i always thought to be making sacastic remarks.that is kind of sad man.and when i complained that no one talks to me online,they smiled in my face and said that "you are a funny guy,and i have really no idea what to talk to you about online" =( wtf!!!!

the remaining 4 heroes went back home at about 1pm today.we found a pair of kittens which looked half dead,lying at the corner of the hdb flat.suddenly,i realised how small we were in compared to the world and there is so little things that we can do as we watch death eating the kittens slowly from the inside.there are just too many things that we had to care about and to be concern of to the extend that we sometimes could just do nothing,but forgetting all about it.this usually makes us feel better.even though it might sound like a selfish act but hey,face it,all humans are self centered.it's either the world cheats you,or the world owes you.it was never the other way round.

ok..those were just some random thoughts.i really do want to help those kittens but i don't really know what to do.maybe you guys can give some suggestions.

i am pretty nervous about going acjc and i am definitely sure that i would not want to go there in my rvhs uniform.

1st

2006-03-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

ok...this is not really my first blog post.i used to write blog entries during those days in rv.however,i realised that i have no life to mention about in rv and so i deleted my older posts lolx i don't like this stupid blogspot thingy because it took me half an hour just to find a link that no one had use b4 >_< i have to say that jc life has much more things to talk about than secondary school days,where i follow daily routines lyk: go asembly,talk cock,go for lesons,have fun during recess and after school,and go home after a tiring day(ok..sound abit lyk jc xD)

today is a sad day for everyone.not just me, but almost everyone around me(except sum brianless gers hu have idea what troubles they are facing)the first bad news started off at 645,when i woke up 15 min later than usual.things got abit worse when the bus 66 pang seh me and i have to wake half an hour more.the worst thing happened after assembly.bravo for everyone who is not crying and tissue for those who is.wtf is moe doing?cutting off at partial 5 points?those guys are nuts man..but anything lar..i am prepared for acjc.

tammy:dun be too sad that u are leaving njc and going to sajc.tears won't be much help when it comes to reality.be strong and expect the changes in your life.your friends will always be there for you =D

da jie and kc and shar and tiff and bern and choon choon: well...just do what you guys usually do lar xD

JQ: dun b 2 sad oso.there are somethings you just have to let go,even though it hurts alot.once my brother,always my brother.letz go back njc sumtimes to eat ice and prata -D

canteen aunties: not sure if you guys have computers or internet connections,but i just wana say "THE FOOD YOU GUYS COOK IS THE BEST!!!!!"(ranked 2nd in comparison wid my parents cooking hehe)

gang37 : even though i am leaving..please keep the guai lan culture in njc alive.it will be really dead without us.especially when we used the weighing machine as disc man and emptying dustbins with our bare hands in the mid of the day.we did so much fun stuff in such a little time.quite an achievement guys =) and guess wat?the in charge of feedback unit sms me and thanked me for all those feedbacks i made (the tap is not working...tap is STILL not working)
ROCK ON GUYS!!!

s10 and nj friends: i cannot rmb your names.but i know your faces.so if u owe me moeny,watch out =D u guys rocked my days in njc..i always have fun when i see those faces that look shocked when i did those crazy stuff.even though we might be leading a completely different life from now,i will definitely miss you guys.(and the money you guys owe me)

hockey brockbackers :....fags...what can i say man lolx

miss lin/miss lau/mr chee/mrs koh : you guys r the best teachers i ever seen.i wish u all good luck and all the best.hopefully i will end up being your good friend instead of taking your lessons xp

njc track: ok..u dun have hands so u obviously dun have computer..bt seriously,i love stepping on u man..and i will do more of it once i have the chance =D

og20: you guys made my life more beautiful than ever when i m in njc.wish you all all the best and good luck no matter where you guys are!!

today marks an end to nj life and a fresh start in acjc

peace outside

special updates to those who wants their names to be mentioned =p haha
1)shu jun : yarla..nice lar..i dirty dirty u stil let me sit down..ur de nicest ger i ever seen
2)michelle : pork chop is a word of greeting in a land call labong...pigs lived ther lolx
3)jiazhen : wao..wat can i say..u have long tongues
guest of honour====heitung : praying HARD that i wun b in same class as you
4)mou : ..k..so i mentioned ur name