memories_left_unsaid

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Wed, 11 Jul 2007 12:04:00 +0000

see my <3
not what i say or what i do
feel my <3
not what i gave or what i bought
touch my <3
not just be there when everything is fine
and then
there will be love..me..and you

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 14:26:00 +0000

习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说离别
有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切

你不爱我
是我舍不得
是我不配
为你在狼狈
你不爱我
你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费

你不爱我
是我舍不得
是我不配
和命运作对
你不爱我
你真的不爱我
一直以为
我是后卫
原来只是
那后备

要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切

一直以为
我是后卫
原来只是
那后备

a day to remember

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Fri, 18 May 2007 13:49:00 +0000

actually i was quite sad at first..coz itz our last game and itz so shity and stuff...BUT we are still a team!!and i sososososososo hope that itz the last time i step into the pitch and knock some balls =DD
acjc hockey rocks!!i shall always remember today

18-5-2007

the day i graduated from my sports cca : hockey muahahahahaha

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 12:57:00 +0000

flopped beep test today.i know i am sick and my ankle is a bit injured,i don't see that it should be an excuse for me under performing like that.should have push myself further but at that barrier,my legs just froze and my hands went cold.i suck man...

我在你的电影中，是主角？还是配角？
也许是生活中的另一个开始，还是另外一个自导自演的悲剧？
生活中有太多的问题，却总是得不到所要的答案

我累了，真的累了

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 13:41:00 +0000

some people died to create
some people create to die

nothing just feels the way it should be anymore
the sun that once shone so brightly,早已失去它原有的光辉
the water that used to taste so sweet，早已失去了它的甘甜
the smile which use to show on her face，只有她的笑容，她的笑容，在我心中永远的灿烂，甜美

用生活来演出每个感人的故事
你和我

not sure what i felt was right

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 17 Feb 2007 19:50:00 +0000

等待没有答案的等待

i am not sure what i felt was right

多一道伤痕？还是永远的祝福？
是将盛开的鲜花？还是埋葬过去的坟墓？
彷徨，无助
你，就是答案

我会在每个情人节
送你一朵玫瑰
不是为了纪念爱情
而是送葬爱情

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Thu, 08 Feb 2007 11:20:00 +0000

getting sick is the worst thing you are gonna have in jc life. first you missed most of the lessons (not that you care) and you physical drop like shit. sadly, it has been a situation i am in for the pass few days.i shall be a nice boy and try to pick up my pace again and mug for all the monstrous tests next week =D good luck to everyone else who are going through the same thing
i had this sudden craze for jennifer lopez songs and i wonder way. guess i couldn't forget the way she dances crazily on the table and her voice. familiar songs like ain't it funny (murder remix) and jenny from the block makes you just want to sing along
i missed the pizza from my free period gang!!!sobx and it's seafood!!!my favorite pizza!but then again it is my fault because i didn't bother walking around and look for them =p
i feel so sad that i have to sacrifice the shopping trip with mr ong jq for our new year clothings because of the upcoming tests and competitions.sometimes i think the what tears our love apart is not the drifting feelings, but the fact that reality is piling up on us.why couldn't jc be 3 years course and 3 years for secondary school??
o gosh..i just realised that my dad is coming next Wednesday!and there is bbq for free period gang on friday~ even though we are not very close...but i have to say thank you guys a lot for inviting me and you guys rock!!!

i am not sure what i m feeling is right

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:14:00 +0000

有一个女孩她说过，在14岁的时候，她明白了友情，信任
在她的伙伴中，她看到了所谓的心灵伴侣，并发现生活没有了他们，会是多么的寂寞，冷酷
在后来，她又经历了爱情，并懂得幸福的意义，心痛的离弃
学会了原谅，她笑过，哭过，恨过，爱过。
时间治愈了一切，除了她心中的伤痛，那些令她成长的伤痛
她把这些伤痛放在一个叫记忆的盒子里，提醒她所度过的时光

爱情让她在痛苦和幸福的矛盾中不断的拉扯，形成一个崩塌的漩涡，不停的旋转着。

她说，她学会了放弃，学会了不怕寂寞；学会了用冷漠保护自己，学会了看到那云朵后的阳光；学会了品尝眼泪的甜味，学会了忘记疼痛。

我想告诉她，生活有很悲伤的事，让人失望的事。
虽然你一次次地受到伤害，但我觉得你不该封闭自己。
给自己一个机会，给他人一个机会。
世上的东西都是成双成对的，应为他们要学会分享，学会支持。
人生的道路还很远，不要因为受过的伤痛，而放弃了尝试的机会。

感谢你该感谢的，原谅你该原谅的；
祝福你该祝福的，感恩你该感恩的。

i am not sure what i feel was right

但我真心的祝福你
勇敢地走下去
虽然我不知你何时会看到，但只希望你知道

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Tue, 30 Jan 2007 12:57:00 +0000

i lost count of the weeks because time flies like ________ .every week, every day, it is filled with trainings, homeworks, stoning and lectures.
i want to lax a bit, watch movies, hang out with my bunch of buddies and stay over night at friends house, which seem to be some luxury items nowadays
gosh i missed primary school days

ok

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 27 Jan 2007 14:22:00 +0000

after a long time of rest i decide to blog again..not that i have anything constructive to say but because of the terribly miserable life that i am going through right now( which i believe, is experienced by most j2)
looking at all the people who are having fun in school and life, i realized that i had missed lots of good times. regrets?too late to think about that and i just have to focus and move on. however, saying is easier than done. When i think back sometimes(ya ..i just got through my 19th birthday..makes me kind of an old man now) i think that i am a pure loser. everyone is getting gf nowadays and it's kind of pressurizing for a guy who had just turned 19. o well love cannot be forced after all so i just pass on that. everyone is mugging and mugging and mugging, but mugging with friends. while i, being a loner, cannot even as a single human being to go out and had resort to mug with scolfield and mr t bag.
the only happy moments that i have got for the pass month is the day when someone actually remembers and celebrated my birthday.for the whole life(so far) i had never celebrated my birthday with anyone before. maybe i was just trying to put up this strong front that i am independent and there is no need for others to care about me.in fact, i think i am pretty weak, emotionally. call me a wimp if you want to but i am a human after all. like what jq said, even superman is scared of cryptonite.
here i am trying to cheer someone up, and pissing at myself on the other hand. i don't know what's wrong with me man, really don't.i get stressed up easily these days and it is quite unusual for me to scold and shout at somebody whom i thought could be my friend, over certain minute issues.maybe it is a stage that everyone had to put through but i find it tough to take it alone.
the world is a stage, and all humans are merely players.if there is a chance to, i rather choose a duet in the this play.

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 11 Nov 2006 13:34:00 +0000

对我好对我好好到无路可退
可是我也很想有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪于是那么迂回

一时进一时退保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我好惭愧
享受被爱滋味却不让你想入非非

就让我们虚伪
有感情别浪费
不能相爱的一对
亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪
我得到于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不是慈悲
这样的关系你说多完美

眼看你看著我看得那么暧昧
被爱爱人原来一样可悲
为甚么竟然防备别人给我献媚

不能推不能要要了怕你误会
让我想起曾经爱过谁
我所要的她不给好像小偷一样卑微

nice song foo~~~ ei...so fast going back china liao..sianed

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sun, 29 Oct 2006 16:46:00 +0000

rating of 4L chalet~
entertainment level 4/5
population size 2.5/5
food quality 3/5
enviroment/atmosphere 4/5

fooo~~hardo gay des~~~
haha 4L chalet is overall a success!!but due to the lack of female comrades/chiobu,it has been quite a let down but our gayness level has absolutely advanced to the next level

1st day
ok ok lar...not really quite warmed up yet so abit sianed at 1st. however, we had alot of fun playing wid the masks provided and props in de rm =D BUT I WAS ATTACKED MOST OF THE TIME LAR!!!dey keep saying that the mask look better than my face =s though abit bu shuang..but damn funy lar!!lolx then therz a few photos of me wid de mask eatin apple and sum of the guys in our class gaying around
we arrived at the chalet around noon but alot of ppl missing.so we ended p eatin n eatin n eatin and buy the stuff that we need for the chalet.aft everythin, checked in and got the mask and shit lolx we spend alof of time playin wid the mask and stuff.after playin a few rounds of asshole dai di,where the few ppl bcums assholes constantly, we got bored. and then,more ppl came lolx and we start to play xbox and walk around.we had dinner at BK and i accidently unlock the secret buger which is not shown on the menu!!the manager damn guai lan lar lolx
at 1st i went in and said
"harlow~~"(waving IN FRONT of his face)"i want to eat..eh what is the BIGGEST burger u have?"ok i tot dat was guai lan enough.then,the manager said
"it is at...(pointin to the menu on counter..then those big poster on de display)..not any where on the menu" *faints wtf!!!i been starin at every pic on de menu and display n he tel me not on it?lolx
so i got the burger and i paid 10 bucks when jianming said "oi,keep the change"
chenwei "haha funy huh oi my change"
manager " ok then..i shall get your onion ring"..
chenwei"wtf!!!!my change!!"
the manager turn around and gave me a spastic look.THEN he gave me the change.phew dat was close man lolx
nxt ting which happend was the fact that i cannot finish the burger!!!itz seriously big lar! no wonder itz the bigest burger in bk lol hand a fun time tryin to finish it =D
aft diner ruijie and chao lin came..played pool wid ruijie and wenle..weaklings lolx keep losing to me =pPppP k lar jokin .aft dat hum ji ruijie went home 1st.aiya den aft dat eat alot of tibits and chips =s oya and beer!!!i felt DAMN slpy and drowsy lar~~when zhong xiao tryin to move me away i kicked his dick real hard lolx really sory sia but anw..i finaly fell aslp at a comfortable position.

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Tue, 24 Oct 2006 11:47:00 +0000

yay~~i m finaly blogin agian lolx not that i wanna stop blogging..itz juz that there are so much things going on everyday man and couldnt find the time to type of all de stuff
first of all...i am totaly broke lolx i mean seriously.everytime i draw out 50 bucks,it will almost be gone the next day due to my debts lolx it all started off when promo ends and holiday begins haha everytime i overspend,i wil be saying things like "aiya..spend once in a while wun die" but..it really made my acount in a total mess lolx watched 5 movies in 3 wks..played pool more den 3 times..went restaurant n number of times..took taxi more den 5 times and 1 time pass mid nite..itz lyk wtf!!! sumore therz chalet cumin up..o gosh i m broke =D
de nxt ting i wana anounce is...my chinese esay is published on de acjc esay colection booklet!!!but the coments i got frm people are pretty mixed.some says that they tink it sucks bcoz dey dun understand...sum tinks itz pretty crazy and weird...sum tinks itz nice and meaningful.well,guess thatz de type of effect i want huh lolx
my promo results sux..but i managed to promote.god bless those who cant and are struggling for it
yesterday was a killer too.first trainin after exam.o gosh imagine sprinting around a soccer field n number of times and bend ur back as if ur sum 100 yr old old man juz to get the hockey ball from one leg acros to the other.but i tink de hard work do pay off.my dribling skils improved though i dint do much to it =D oya i manage to run 5km in 25 min!!ok lar or maybe around that time limit lolx
class chalet is on friday~~lookin forward to it =D

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Mon, 25 Sep 2006 12:58:00 +0000

{[being !CHENWEI]} 我跟你不是很熟 just a friend 서영은 - 눈의 꽃 自导自演的悲剧 says:good luck for promos...and 4L ppl..enjoy chalet foo~~~

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Tue, 19 Sep 2006 14:43:00 +0000

我只是一个玩具
在你欢喜的时候被你捡起
有过的欢乐
似乎如段真诚的回忆
尽兴之时，随手将我遗弃
我无力，反抗你的背弃
只因在那瞬间，似乎有了心灵的交替
就这样，我被遗弃
我无力，只因我是一个玩具

面具的背后，是否真的一无所有？
所有的叹息，只是我无聊而引起？
谁都没有错，错的，只是我自己。

promo...wtf..

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Tue, 12 Sep 2006 11:21:00 +0000

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever
ever survive
how do i how do i
oh how do i live

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还停留
说不出口的感动
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
不能重来
不愿离开
是永远都灿烂的爱

每一天在你的梦里等待
每一次我感觉你的存在
so how do i live
how do i live
how do i live
without you

当你的手还握在我手中
没有一次
我还放手
没有一次
停留
当你的手还握在我手中
灿烂的笑容
不论过多久
都让我心动

oh tell me now

how do i live without you
how do i breathe without you

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 09 Sep 2006 13:11:00 +0000

有些人选择忘记，我选择珍惜
也许我不懂
但共有过的美好回忆
就要这样对待

hope you will feel bter =D

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 13:43:00 +0000

therz a few reasons dat i will never move out of parc oasis

1)ixxixxs will always be playin soccer at one ulu corner even though therz a lot of them while ppl lyk me wil b chilling at de pool or bbal court or gym
2)chiobu aka hot babde from all over the world, european, jap,korean and even singaporean will be sun taning/swim at de pool at 3 to 9 pm depending on the weather.this will cultivate a variation in the prospective of chiobu viewing =D
3)there are 4 foodcourts nearby,4bbal court,near jp,jec,westmall,lot1,swiming pool, jec sports complex,a few bus stops and a mrt station.what more can i ask for man
4)all my lovely frenz are staying nearby =D

life's good,but the best is yet to be

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Wed, 06 Sep 2006 16:25:00 +0000

看着你网上的日记
耳边放着你喜爱的歌曲
如此美丽的夜晚
让我想起了你

从来没有过的拥有
只是我一厢的情愿

好想在这一刻握着你的手
告诉你那瞬间
是我和你的永远，永远
在月光下，你耳边
轻轻地说我爱你
今世只要有你在身边

从来没有过的拥有
只是我一厢的情愿

在梦中的距离是如此的靠近
轻轻诉说着你的秘密
望着你深情的双眼
那月因你而美丽

不用说，我会懂
放下只是逃避的借口
梦始终有醒的时候
那么多的用心
只能换来一个无法逾越的伤口

从来没有过的拥有
只是我一厢的情愿

对不起，只想说声我爱你

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sun, 03 Sep 2006 11:09:00 +0000

ever felt drenched and energy all drained, but still have to see those fuck face that otherz are giving you,including ur family?datz wat i m going through now..everyone would rather piss me off than alowin me 2 do watever i like.. sometimes i did try to mend it,trying to do something to help otherz.dey will be like "is this chen wei?stop being a hypocrite man." hey assholes i m trying to do sth meaningful alrite?seeing shit goin around me aint make me happy either.all i m sayin is please apreciate some stuff i do man..motherz day, i bought my mum a rose and guess what,itz lying at some random corners de 2nd day.dey say that it is not a chinese tradition to celebrate motherz day or any western festivals while i say datz bullshit.juz too lazy to give sum credits who try and show their kindness.fuck dat
sometimes i tried to care,but everyone else juz stays away, like i caught sum disease or sumthin.i hate this man i HATE THIS! and for those who did feel like this,damn u in hell.
this flu is killing me man..when izit gona be over?makes me hungry all de time but dun feel lyk studyin or exercising at all.to certain extend, my life is screwed..fuck
and those ppl who said dey care,trust me, they dun.nobody gives a shit about u when it comes to themselves.rmb dat t shirt dat says "me me me me me me me me me"?datz de shit datz wrong wid ppl these days
i m done

give me the strength to carry on

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 26 Aug 2006 02:51:00 +0000

gre8 outing ytrday guys..even though most of the time are talking about dota lolx the nanny was a bonus to de 30 dolar meal which made it worth afteral =D shld gt de hp num man since we got so much yuan fen...wasted sia
and i have been asked for cigerate de 2nd time.do i look lyk i freaking smoke??? sumore itz always those mama-san looking women dat asked for smoke frm me =S
muz mug over the weekend liao haha promo and exams and piling up.poly students,take a break.jc ppl...chiong ar!!!

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sun, 20 Aug 2006 15:35:00 +0000

everyone seem to be breaking down these days and just getting weird...

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Wed, 16 Aug 2006 12:55:00 +0000

u can tell whos ur fren and huz not when your in trouble.now i know what it really mean

aaaaaaarrrrrrr i stil canot freakin walk or run lar dots..sumore i canot walk for long..oso duno y sia alot of ppl said it shld b healed by now leh =s
anw alot of exams and hw coming up so lazy to update abit lolx
boonch!!make sure got s10 outin =z

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 12 Aug 2006 10:42:00 +0000

if therz a olympic event for the best limper in de world, i m definitely going for it.due to a foolish mistake during a basketball match, i accidently sprained my ankle n now it is swollen lyk a melon nw.went to the doc twice and o gosh it is so damn expensive.30 bucks for de massage,medication and sum pills n mc =S furthermore i have to take taxi down to the clinic..so itz lyk 20 dolars more?grrrrr the best way to save money in singapore is not to fall sick or gt injured man..
been doin SOME homework this few days...rumour says that i have been muggin at home for 3 days but no....absolutely no...whenever i sit on the chair wid the notes in my hand,my foot start to ache.so in conclusion, the most thing i did over this few days of rest is to pack my file lolx everyday i m lyk...sleepinh...eatin lunch...sit and stone...watch tv...read the paper..nap...wake up..stone....use de com...dinner...watch tv...den slp again lolx totally old man style lor haix..shldnt have sprained it in de 1st place..missed the last fireworks performance 2day..
anw click is a nice show =D u guys shld catch it while itz still showing
grrrr i missed 06s10...freakin njc...while wun dey acept me...

noreply@blogger.com (boss) — Sat, 15 Jul 2006 12:43:00 +0000

"wazup everybody~~~my name is johnny~~~welcome to my show~~~"
if you guys hear me speaking funny,datz bcoz of johnny in zhn my car lolx itz damn funny!!!itz a pity dat the newpaper fired mr brown sia hope he continue to make guai lan podcast and not catch by mata.
anw my prev en3 was totaly unlike me and i apologise for dat.even though i failed everything in my terms,i shld start to mug and slack a bit wen needed lar lolx
watched pirates ytrday at about 9 sth pm...wasnt very nice and it kindof makes me sleepy.even though itz hilarious,itz more lyk a preview for pirates 3.a very disapointing ending indeed.gosh i stil have 12 article reviews to do man see you guys around!!
walan eh kns nxt wk gt heritage day n acjc gt nothing on.acjc better have sum party shit and anounce within the nxt wk if not,i wil gona b so damn pissed

give me the strength to carry on